Renewing my committment to sobriety
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Renewing my committment to sobriety
Im glad to have a place to log some current feelings and get them off my chest! I committed to not drinking years ago to be the best dad and husband (and person) that I can be. Recently I have slipped up and had a few on Saturdays. I just thought it would be good to relax and have a few beers while I did some work outside. Of course every time I drink I feel horrible about it the next few days but it seems like it sometimes hasn't been enough to stop me the next Saturday.
I get especially tempted whenever I'm excited about something. Its definitely a trigger that I need to recognize. It never fails though. I feel bad going in and buying a couple of beers and it usually results in buying a few more. I'm tired of it and sometimes Im flat out tired of me.. I get pretty disgusted with myself and need to find a way to control that urge.
I never used to get urges like that. I usually never have to have the first drink but lately that has changed. I just feel like it would make the afternoon go that much better but its all ********. It winds up being something that I feel bad about.
Im looking forward to this crap being behind me.....
I get especially tempted whenever I'm excited about something. Its definitely a trigger that I need to recognize. It never fails though. I feel bad going in and buying a couple of beers and it usually results in buying a few more. I'm tired of it and sometimes Im flat out tired of me.. I get pretty disgusted with myself and need to find a way to control that urge.
I never used to get urges like that. I usually never have to have the first drink but lately that has changed. I just feel like it would make the afternoon go that much better but its all ********. It winds up being something that I feel bad about.
Im looking forward to this crap being behind me.....
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Welcome! Yes, alcoholism would have us believe that drinking would make everything go better, but experience tells us otherwise. I'm glad you found us and are committed to sobriety.
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Happy to meet you cc78.
It was hard for me to admit that drinking could never be the relaxing, fun thing it once was. I'd crossed over from social to alcoholic drinking years before I quit. It always turned on me in the end. It feels wonderful to be free of it.
It was hard for me to admit that drinking could never be the relaxing, fun thing it once was. I'd crossed over from social to alcoholic drinking years before I quit. It always turned on me in the end. It feels wonderful to be free of it.
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