Mountainmanbob

A drink or two works just fine for most.
In my case I refer to it as "the liquid devil."
Seems to keep me reminded of what happens each and every time that I return to the drink -- ain't pretty.
M-Bob

Hevyn

Hi Cocteau. I'm so glad you wanted to talk about what happened.

The angry demon in me comes out every time I pick up. I did the same thing you did. I was 3 yrs. sober & felt pressured into drinking some wine. I convinced myself I could miraculously handle it again. After a few weeks I was right back where I started years before - but much worse. I had a shorter fuse, I was confrontational and irrational. None of that is part of my personality when sober. I didn't catch myself like you have - I went on for years trying to moderate. I finally got myself straight again & never drank after that - I guess I needed further proof I could never touch it. A painful lesson to learn - but here we are. We'll be more vigilant - and we will not let ourselves down again.