Very briefly: still not dead!
 

Fairly amazing, considering abuse since last post; when I leave this place, I do it vigourously, and I'm always shocked at my continued survival. Whether that speaks to my rock-hard constitution, or the power of hope, I only know this: when things get that bad, I keep coming back here...and here you all are! It's quite miraculous, really...

Love and junk,
Arp

Well.....
glad you haven't caked it just yet mate.

Tho I guess we won't be expecting an announcement of the memorial service.

C'mon dude....why?

I remember you, Arpeggioh. I'm glad you're not dead. Let's not drink tomorrow, me and you both.

I used to be like that.... macho...proud of my mortal frame's ability to take massive amounts of abuse. I'd brag about it.

Now I know that it's nothing to be proud of.

Always glad to see you, Arp - but I wish you'd take better care of yourself.

Well I guess God loves you til you can love yourself. Glad you're alive.

Hope you will stick around, and stay sober.

Hey, Arp. Glad to hear you're not dead. Sorry to hear that you've been drinking so much. Maybe stick close to SR for a while? It's gotta be better than the alternative?

Dang I thought this was going to be a good update Arp.

Take it from me - you can't be made of titanium and wrapped in teflon forever.

Make a list of all the things you love...that's a list of all the things you risk losing if you continue to drink.

I know what kept me drinking, pride - I didn't want to be different and I didn't want to be beaten - and fear - I didn't know how to live sober or who I;d be.

Neither of those are good enough reasons to pee your life away.

whats keeping you drinking, man?
D

Arpeggioh,

That used to be me too. I ve often been the one man standing in the room, I d always have one more glass, one more line, one more pill, you name it.

Body always kept going fairly unharmed, but what I do realise now is I was a shadow of the person I can be and that it was all pure madness, that was going to kill me at some point.

You know you need to stop this, mate, I guarantee it will make you happier.

P

Whew, me too. (Joke, if not brag, about it) I definitely put myself through hell's wringer. Somehow came out this side...but I know I don't have any more chances in me.

Arp, glad you came back- that you do every now and then- and I hope you stop taking chances.

You're not dead... yet. But who knows what can happen if you keep drinking. :(

I had a close friend who would brag about how his liver was titanium and he was impenetrable.... it did not turn out very well for him! ☠️

I used to think my body was tough and amazing despite how much I was drinking . two weeks ago it gave up I was rushed to hospital with kidney failure (now resolved it was dehydration) but my ultrasound has I unfortunately shown cirrhosis in my liver. I am 45. I was fine and my body just suddenly gave up. Please please be careful :(

don't leave this place! :) I am glad you are okay. welcome back!

I had a rock hard constitution, which allowed me to drink and smoke insane amounts, compared to many others. My body would simply adapt and survive, as it were, but I wish I never had that blessing. These days, I am broken physically, and I am being tested, but all I want is to heal.

I regret abusing my body and mind for so long, while everything was still healthy. There were so many wasted years, which I know you can understand, Arpeggioh. Lately, I have this crazy inclination to "save" others from similar mistakes, which is not healthy for me, so I'll just leave you with your own words:

Over ten years on SR -

Take stronger action.

"I don't want to go on the cart!"

Welcome back Arp!

:grouphug:

Hoping you'll be back to talk things over, Arp.

One thing that was said to me in my very first recovery discussion was 'if you are still able to do/keep a complex job, hold down a family and kids and still live a life, imagine how good you could be without the anchor around your neck that is alcohol'

You have an opportunity to be a vastly improved version of yourself! I say take it!