Day 3...again...did not sleep... At all. Uugh.
 

Lil man will be up soon. Zero sleep. Can't break free of day 3 or 4 cycle. Did I mention today is Day 3? This chest pain is brutal (anxiety not cardiac). It is such an indescribable pain. My feet/hands are sweating profusely . My thoughts are obsessive & it's barely 0630!!!!!!!!! My husband went to work, I'm sure to escape this madness . Talk of divorce. Again. Hoping someone will send me positive thoughts . Today is going to suck! Did I mention I went to a celebrate recovery meeting drunk this week? Stellar .

Hang in there, Chele. Do you have time for a shower before your child wakes? Coffèe? Does keeping busy help? What does your day look like? You can do this!

Sipping coffee now. I won't take time for a shower. I am miserable. Amazingly, I look foreward to him getting up. He keeps me busy , which helps until b/t 1000-1300.....thats my normal drinking time😣

Do you need to see a doctor? Could be w-drawls.

I'm sure that's a part of it. And ,no I haven't.

Good morning. Yep. I know well "drinking time". It helped me to change my pattern to anything active where there was no alcohol. Is that early afternoon for you? Do you have alcohol available today? If so, can you make a plan to get rid of it ? Coffee now sounds so good!

It's 10am-1pm ish. Lol. No. I don't keep any in house. Instead , I go buy it 3x a week because when I break it up I don't have a problem. (Sarcasm)

Ok. You've got a terrific start in day 3! What can you do today that doesn't involve alcohol? You'll have your little one with you? How's the weather? Something active outside? Can you get to the dr if needed? Eating sweet stuff helped me!

Is weather nice enough to get outside with your little one? I walked and walked and walked in the early weeks, listening to audiobooks if possible. Anything to distract mind min by minute if I could. Probably wouldn't work exactly like that with a young child along but the fresh air and movement could still help.
Anyway, so sorry you feel so bad right now. Stay close to SR. Sending you positive vibes for a better day.

remind yourself that ALCOHOL is why you feel like you do. alcohol is the source of the insomnia, anxiety, sweating, etc etc etc. alcohol is not the solution. alcohol will only make it worse.

don't drink, no matter what.

I'm hanging in here........... Still uughhh

I went through a lot of the same.
Hang in there it gets better on the other side of this hill.:grouphug:

I had ice cold feet and sweaty body. Soak the sheets sweat.
Sleep will come. You will be surprised how well rested you'll be when it does.
I swear I never really slept well until I quit drinking.
More like passing out than real rest.

Keep up the good work, And keep us close.:grouphug:

It's getting worse. My husband is home but ignoring me. It's always my trigger. Always. If I drink he will use it against me re: our lil boy. I'm trying to clean, stay busy, ect. I just want to curl up in a ball😣

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triggers are really just excuses with a different name that makes us sound helpless. YOU are not helpless. you don't HAVE to pick up a drink. no matter what.

your son deserves a sober mommy. you deserve to BE sober.

i know!!!!!!!! I know!!!!!!!!!!

Just hang in there....tomorrow will be better. For me, Day 4 was Hump Day. I crawled over the hump but I made it through...anxiety lessens each day. You can do it!!!

Does your husband support how hard you're trying? Can you do something distracting as a family? An outing, chores, the park? Or, since he's home, can you go back to bed? The early days are hard indeed, but you have to go through them to get past them. Think of all that's good in your life...and I guess that alcohol doesn't make the list. Focus on what's good! You have a cheering section here on SR!

Ughh. Sleep. Yep, know the problem. I am banished to our spare room at the moment because my sleep has gone to pot (I'm on day 15). I got my first good night's sleep a couple of days ago, but last night was bad again.

I can't offer advice, just sympathy :-)

Stick with it - it will get better for both of us.