Silver11

Well I screwed up again. Just can't make it past a week. I only had 3 beers and went to bed but it was like a TITAN wanted me to drink those 3 beers.

The worst part was ; my 6 year old son asking why I would drink something so 'smelly'.

Love,

Ash

entropy1964

Well nothing changes if nothing changes. Maybe a program of recovery?

Michael66

Sorry to hear that Drash. How are the urges today - are you going to be able to cope?

MLD51

Sounds like you need something more to support your sobriety. Just wanting to quit isn't usually enough. Rehab? AA? SMART Recovery? I needed rehab and AA. I had been on the merry-go-round for so long. I'd make it a week, two weeks, then I'd drink again, despite a true desire to stop. It took real action, and real surrender to the fact that I'm an alcoholic, before the desire to drink started to go away. Wouldn't it be great if your son never had to watch you drink again?

ChloeRose63

Maybe you should take a good whiff of the 'smelly' stuff and pour it down the drain. It really is 'smelly' and I'm sure your son thinks you are 'smelly', too! ♡CR

Mountainmanbob

Well, it's good that his statement meant something to you.
For some drunks will get to the point in time where
nothing or no one matters to them anymore.
The drink will consume their days and nights.
They will start to fall down and not even know why.
Loved ones will be gone and they know not where.
MB

doggonecarl

Giving in to the drink only makes it that much more difficult to get past the cravings next time.

At some point, if you want to get sober, you have to get past the seemingly unceasing obsession to pick up. You have about a week to figure out how you are going to do that. And it's not a Titan you are fighting. It's Drash11.

columbus

A few days after I quit I emptied my trash can of old empties. Had to pick each one up and put it in a bag.

Almost gagged at the stench!

(and immediately washed my hands!)

Dee74

I'm sorry you drank.

It looks like you don't really have a plan in place to help you not drink?

In your last post you were looking forward to a sober evening with your son and legos - I find it really sad for the both of you that that didn't pan out the way you planned.

I'm not trying to be mean....but if you look back through your threads willpower doesn't seem to be enough for you, and neither are declarations of intent.

Maybe it's time to take some of the suggestions here and actively look into things like AA or some other meeting based group? or AVRT/Rational Recovery?

Even looking through this plan link might give you some ideas.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html

I don't think c'est la vie is the right attitude here - you can make your life whatever you want it to be, Drash.

D

Hevyn

Yes, why would we want to drink something so smelly - and damaging. It doesn't sound like you got anything out of it but disappointment in yourself. Let's try this again, Ash. There's nothing in it for us anymore.

Avra

Drash, I have a young child at home too. She is seven. Because Of drinking I missed so much of her life. I look back and realize i didnt really know her, not like my husband did, being so preoccupied with alcohol as I was. I am not going to miss anymore. My quality of life,and I believe hers too, has dramatically improved since I walked away from booze.

I hope you find your way out of this and find your determination and strenght to put it down as well.