Feeling good, but guarded
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Feeling good, but guarded
Day 12...longest stretch in a very long time. I actually feel good, like REALLY good. Every other time i have tried to abstain i would be itching for a drink and my av would be in overdrive. I feel like something clicked this time. It is helping to focus daily on the clarity i now have. Today would have, 100%, been a day i would have drank, but i didnt even have an urge. I am curious as to whether or not the new meds my dr put me on are contributing or if I really am this strong. In any case, i am proud and guarded because i realize one false sense of security could set me right back. Thanks for listening
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I'm glad you're comfortable, BUT!!!
Prepare for that time when you may have a strong desire to drink. It will likely happen. Just have a plan what you are going to tell yourself and how you are going to get to the other side of that urge.
"I don't drink. No matter what." Then get busy doing something else - distract distract. Call a friend, clean out a drawer. Do some laundry. Drink some hot tea. Take a walk. Whatever it takes.
Prepare for that time when you may have a strong desire to drink. It will likely happen. Just have a plan what you are going to tell yourself and how you are going to get to the other side of that urge.
"I don't drink. No matter what." Then get busy doing something else - distract distract. Call a friend, clean out a drawer. Do some laundry. Drink some hot tea. Take a walk. Whatever it takes.
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Originally Posted by biminiblue 
I'm glad you're comfortable, BUT!!!
Prepare for that time when you may have a strong desire to drink. It will likely happen. Just have a plan what you are going to tell yourself and how you are going to get to the other side of that urge.
"I don't drink. No matter what." Then get busy doing something else - distract distract. Call a friend, clean out a drawer. Do some laundry. Drink some hot tea. Take a walk. Whatever it takes.
Prepare for that time when you may have a strong desire to drink. It will likely happen. Just have a plan what you are going to tell yourself and how you are going to get to the other side of that urge.
"I don't drink. No matter what." Then get busy doing something else - distract distract. Call a friend, clean out a drawer. Do some laundry. Drink some hot tea. Take a walk. Whatever it takes.
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I found I needed to prepare for a thoughtless moment, just one second when my defences were down. I never drank because of a strong urge, I drank because momentarily it did not occur to me not to drink.
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Do you have a solid plan of recovery? Do you know what you'd do if you had the urge to drink? Make a plan and then work it to the best of your ability. 
My plan, in the beginning, was seeing an addiction counselor once a week, and daily visits to SR. I no longer see the counselor, but I come here every day to read and post.
My plan, in the beginning, was seeing an addiction counselor once a week, and daily visits to SR. I no longer see the counselor, but I come here every day to read and post.
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Hmmmm It could be the meds. But I think it's common for a time to come when the hard work pays off and the obsession to drink finally ends.
This happened to me twice, without meds. But I fell the first time because I forgot I was alcoholic after a while. I felt normal again, and then started thinking I could be a normal drinker again.
You're wise to stay guarded. I think it's also wise to continue reminding ourselves for the rest of our lives that we can't drink and to never toy with the idea again.
You're doing great
This happened to me twice, without meds. But I fell the first time because I forgot I was alcoholic after a while. I felt normal again, and then started thinking I could be a normal drinker again.
You're wise to stay guarded. I think it's also wise to continue reminding ourselves for the rest of our lives that we can't drink and to never toy with the idea again.
You're doing great
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Originally Posted by least
Do you have a solid plan of recovery? Do you know what you'd do if you had the urge to drink? Make a plan and then work it to the best of your ability.
My plan, in the beginning, was seeing an addiction counselor once a week, and daily visits to SR. I no longer see the counselor, but I come here every day to read and post.
My plan, in the beginning, was seeing an addiction counselor once a week, and daily visits to SR. I no longer see the counselor, but I come here every day to read and post.
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Originally Posted by whatcouldbe
Every other time i have tried to abstain i would be itching for a drink and my av would be in overdrive... Today would have, 100%, been a day i would have drank, but i didnt even have an urge.
Is that indeed the case?
If so, why exactly is that a good thing?
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Originally Posted by red3215
Hmmmm It could be the meds. But I think it's common for a time to come when the hard work pays off and the obsession to drink finally ends.
This happened to me twice, without meds. But I fell the first time because I forgot I was alcoholic after a while. I felt normal again, and then started thinking I could be a normal drinker again.
You're wise to stay guarded. I think it's also wise to continue reminding ourselves for the rest of our lives that we can't drink and to never toy with the idea again.
You're doing great
This happened to me twice, without meds. But I fell the first time because I forgot I was alcoholic after a while. I felt normal again, and then started thinking I could be a normal drinker again.
You're wise to stay guarded. I think it's also wise to continue reminding ourselves for the rest of our lives that we can't drink and to never toy with the idea again.
You're doing great
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Originally Posted by Algorithm
What I am reading here is that if you did have an urge to drink, that you would go ahead and drink, full stop, 100%. You have a plan to go ahead and drink as soon as the urge strikes.
Is that indeed the case?
If so, why exactly is that a good thing?
Is that indeed the case?
If so, why exactly is that a good thing?
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Originally Posted by whatcouldbe
I am simply saying that the drinking me wouldve drank on a day like today. The one that is trying to live and live a sober and healthy life won out. That, to me is a huge step and a good thing. And no i am not saying if i had an urge i would drink, i would fight like hell and stick to my plan. I was more or less commenting that the av was weak and i know i am grateful regardless of how that happened.
Sounds like an enjoyable period of "pink cloud" which is great- where is the foundation to keep the positiveness and momentum you've got right now?
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Originally Posted by August252015
Little confused by this sentence as it seems contradictory, but assuming you are saying that you WOULD fight like hell and stick to your plan- what is your plan?
Sounds like an enjoyable period of "pink cloud" which is great- where is the foundation to keep the positiveness and momentum you've got right now?
Sounds like an enjoyable period of "pink cloud" which is great- where is the foundation to keep the positiveness and momentum you've got right now?
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I wasn't correcting your language and certainly not being condescending so Inapologize if it came off that way to you. I'm a big proponent of the pink cloud and that we indeed can maintain that as our version of a best life. All I was asking is what you are doing to continue it- and that question comes from someone who works daily to keep mynpink cloud.
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