Kyng

Hey everyone,
I've been absent for the past couple weeks, haven't really been putting recovery forefront like I should be. I'm still sober, but man does my AV ever get active if I don't communicate or get to meetings. All day I'm dealing with my brain giving me justifications about why I should drink, but I just won't let myself do it.

My friends, family, and co-workers all have already noticed a positive difference in me, but to me, I just feel like the same moody, confused ******* I was before. I understand now that AA isn't just about becoming sober (that really is the easy part), its about staying sober and ultimately becoming a better person who can handle the challenges life throws. Handling those mental challenges is really the hurdle. I've become aware of them now that my brain isn't so fogged. I'm aware of all my defects of character, and dealing with that and accepting it is a struggle.

Hope you all have an awesome day and lets finish this one sober together,

K