Day 2 and struggling - I don't know if I can make it
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Good day all. Thank you all for your wonderful words of encouragement and thank you for checking in with me today. This is day 3 and right now my plan to fight the urge today is to simply stay at home and not go out. This will prevent me from dropping by the liquor store for "just one bottle". I think this is more white knuckling it right now but for now and while I work on my plan and lists this is how it is.
I've gotten a lot of great ideas from you all and really appreciate it. I feel like I have the strength and determination to follow up with these ideas now. My mind is slowly shifting into a getter place.
I was so afraid of judgement for my situation but so thankful for the acceptance and encouragement. Thank you all so very much. God's blessings for a wonderful and healthy 2017 for each of you.
I've gotten a lot of great ideas from you all and really appreciate it. I feel like I have the strength and determination to follow up with these ideas now. My mind is slowly shifting into a getter place.
I was so afraid of judgement for my situation but so thankful for the acceptance and encouragement. Thank you all so very much. God's blessings for a wonderful and healthy 2017 for each of you.
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Thank you BB. I appreciate your suggestions here. I would appreciate it if you could pass the list on to me. I tend to do better with some type of template to start to work from and it sounds like the list would be just that.
Thank you so much for your good wishes and sound advise.
xx00 labgirl
Thank you so much for your good wishes and sound advise.
xx00 labgirl
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Well done on day 3! I just want to say a word about white-knuckling. It doesn't have to be this big frustrating negative thing. Ultimately, white knuckling was what worked for me. I was so worried that I needed a Big Plan, that what I was doing wasn't enough, that if I don't do it some certain way, I would definitely fail... I just want to tell you that sometimes it's a simple as committing that you will not drink, no matter what, and whatever it takes. Be it for the rest of your life, or one day at a time, or 30 minutes at a time. Whatever works for you, as long as you don't pick up no matter what.
Hugs and good wishes for a great sober week ahead!
Hugs and good wishes for a great sober week ahead!
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Originally Posted by melki 
Well done on day 3! I just want to say a word about white-knuckling. It doesn't have to be this big frustrating negative thing. Ultimately, white knuckling was what worked for me. I was so worried that I needed a Big Plan, that what I was doing wasn't enough, that if I don't do it some certain way, I would definitely fail... I just want to tell you that sometimes it's a simple as committing that you will not drink, no matter what, and whatever it takes. Be it for the rest of your life, or one day at a time, or 30 minutes at a time. Whatever works for you, as long as you don't pick up no matter what.
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Originally Posted by labgirl
Thank you BB. I appreciate your suggestions here. I would appreciate it if you could pass the list on to me. I tend to do better with some type of template to start to work from and it sounds like the list would be just that.
Thank you so much for your good wishes and sound advise.
xx00 labgirl
Thank you so much for your good wishes and sound advise.
xx00 labgirl
Prayers for your recovery and sobriety tonight from the UK. BB
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Hey - it is actually pretty dang nice being in your right mind all day every day 
Please hang in there with us. Takes awhile to break that nasty spell but when it starts to happen the only thing you will fret about is that you did not quit sooner
Please hang in there with us. Takes awhile to break that nasty spell but when it starts to happen the only thing you will fret about is that you did not quit sooner
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Originally Posted by labgirl
Hi. I’m here at the end of day 2 with nothing to drink. Part of me is glad of this and the other part of me wants a drink. I hate to admit this, but stringing 2 days together without a drink is quite a feat for me. This is after 3-4 years of ever increasing drinking. I’ve gone from wine to rum and finally at vodka. I drink for the oblivion. The initial buzz is fine and I like it but my main goal is blackout. I’m not the type who can buy a bottle and just drink a little or even half of it….no, I buy a bottle and finish the entire thing in one night. This behavior happens almost on a daily basis. I may have one night that I don’t drink at all but those are few and far between. With me I drink in the evenings. I stop after work and pick something up to bring home for the evening. Needless to say the next morning I’m hung over to the max and have to struggle through my morning workout and then work for the rest of the day only to do it again that very evening. I hate it, I hate myself. I want to quit, I need to quit. This routine has absolutely shredded any self-esteem I may have had; I can’t even look at myself in the mirror. When I pass someone at work, at the grocery store, anywhere, I can’t even look up at them. I’m so disgusted with myself and I don’t want to see that disgust reflected back in the face of strangers.
I pray that I’ll stay strong tomorrow when the stores open back up after the holiday and that I won’t collapse and buy a bottle of false courage.
Thanks for reading.
I pray that I’ll stay strong tomorrow when the stores open back up after the holiday and that I won’t collapse and buy a bottle of false courage.
Thanks for reading.
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Thanks whitehorses. I know exactly what you mean. I've found empty bottles as well as those 1/2 full still. And each time I found one I was overcome with shame. I'm very glad that tonight I am sober, I'll remember what I did tonight when I wake up in the morning and I won't be hung over.
thanks for your post
thanks for your post
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You're doing great labgirl, you got this! I can relate to you a lot in your initial post. I'm in day 5, and today was my first day off work. As to avoid previous habits I made a schedule of what I would do all day. I too will remember what I did today without a hangover. I do not want another hangover ever.
Keep it up!!
Keep it up!!
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thanks for sharing labgirl. I am winding up day 3 also. I also would drink to oblivion every night. Not because I wanted to, but because I just couldn't seem to stop myself from getting to that point.
So far, the past 2 mornings, I've woken up happy, and relieved that I'm not hungover with a head full of fog. I actually look forward to the evening where I can relax and have some tea instead.... going through the actual evening is what seems to be difficult... not because of cravings exactly, but more restlessness.... I wish you (and us) much success
So far, the past 2 mornings, I've woken up happy, and relieved that I'm not hungover with a head full of fog. I actually look forward to the evening where I can relax and have some tea instead.... going through the actual evening is what seems to be difficult... not because of cravings exactly, but more restlessness.... I wish you (and us) much success
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