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Old 12-31-2016, 10:16 AM
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I'm going to be sober tonight

New Years Eve.

You know, I'm going to be honest. I never had a great night on NYE, except once, where my friend's band was playing and I danced on a barstool all night, packed in the crowd. I couldn't drink that night because I was dancing on a stool in a very crowded club for hours. I was probably legally sober. My friend danced with me on another stool and we laughed and laughed...

There are other nights I don't really remember, others where I... oh, ah, uh, ugh... yeah.

It's hard to make resolutions when you know inside, in your very honest place, that what you need to do is a lot more than just shaking off holiday indulgence.

It's hard to welcome a new year when the last one was flushed down the toilet, one day at a time, with the choice to open the bottle every day.

This year, I'm going to bed early because I will be waking up early to cross country ski.

This year, I have a over a third of a sober year behind my belt and have just started to really see how good this is.

This year I feel so grateful. So profoundly grateful. I want to change some things but I am not wanting for anything on the outside to make those changes. I can see that I can do what I need to. My relationship with time is changing. Slowly. But, when I consider that four months compared to forty years has helped this, it's so fast.

It's not magic. It's not a pill, or a drink, or any fast fix. It's living, one day at a time.

2016 was a hard year of huge losses and brought havoc that is beyond my control. But it was the year I looked inside myself and didn't look away.

Thank you, SR.

I'm going to be sober tonight. Join me!!!

In Gratitude,

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Old 12-31-2016, 10:22 AM
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Got room for a fat guy? I'm in!!!
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Great post bexxed

Im also in for a sober NYE!
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Great post Bexxed. Thank you and Happy New Year !
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Happy New Year, Bexxed...
"I hope you dance"!
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I've been watching for you, so glad to hear you're doing so well! Great post!

NYE on the Atlantic here...DH is out of town. The dogs will be medicated because my state made fireworks legal a few years back and now every holiday is like Armageddon. Hate.

I'll probably go all Girls Gone Wild and add a second marshmallow to my cocoa. Whew, TMZ home page here I come!

Happy 2017!

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Happy New Year Bexxed. And Happy New Life. Such freedom. Amazing isn't it. X
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Fantastic post Bexxed!! You can do this!!
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Hope you had a great day bexxed

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thanks for the invite, bexxed, and I'll happily join you!
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Im right with you...sober, in my jammies and hangin out with the hubs!!

So happy for us! You are so right, We have many blessings to be grateful for!
Life is good!
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Hey, thanks everyone! It's 8:30 AM on New Years Day and I'm up, drank some tea, ate some oatmeal (NY Resolution: eat healthy whole food) and am getting ready to hit the forest trails to go XC skiing with the dog and my girlfriend.

It's a beautiful day. It snowed where we are last night. Beautiful fresh powder on the ground when I took the dog out this morning. I'm so grateful to be clear and rested on New Years Day.

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Isn't it great to wake up on New Years Day and know exactly what happened last night?

I got up at 6AM and went for a short jog in this 20 degree weather, 2 miles. Then got in my car and went to a local diner for breakfast. Nice to be able to drive that early on new years day without worrying about being pulled over! During my drinking career I was probably still at least a .12 the morning after.

Congrats on your sober evening and day, bexxed, keep it up. 2017 is going to be great!
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