My last post was Oct 2012, what happened since then.
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My last post was Oct 2012, what happened since then.
I was bad off, severe anxiety, and overwhelming fear that I couldn't get rid of, an impending fear that felt like doom imminent.
Shakes, cravings, brain fog, helplessness.
I even called a rehab center and AA, but fear of being recognized by an alcoholic and then that getting relayed to my job stopped me. It was an irrational fear that someone would see me at AA or rehab and report it to my boss that seemed real.
I didn't think the cravings would ever stop and the future looked dark.
Today here we are almost new years 2017.
I've been sober for 4 years and 2 months!
All brain fog left me several months after quitting and would return for short periods years after but it's completely gone now.
Mental clarity now is back to when I was a teen and I'm more productive in work and marriage than ever before.
I quit through prayer and Bible verses, I also weened myself off alcohol and stayed disciplined never allowing myself to go over the HARM reduction schedule. This is the hardest part where most fail so I encourage rehab or AA because the weening fail rate, but it did work for me.
As for the cravings, I have none at all. It's like a bad breakup, you might think about the person you broke up with for a long time, but one day you'll forget; one day you'll think "what was her last name anyway?" Time only leaves me with the bad memories of alcohol, not the positive. I've had it offered and had it in front of me while others drank and I have no desire, none.
Also one of the hardest parts about quitting is worry how I'd adjust to life sober, it seemed so boring and that it would never be the same. That was a lie, I've gotten involved in more and new hobbies that are so much more fun than sitting in a bar all night.
I only wrote this post so people like I was back in 2012 can read it and know that it's worth the effort.
Everything can be back to how it was before you ever picked up a drink.
Stay strong, have a plan and stick to it, don't let your cravings or alcohol controlled mind control you and your future.
Shakes, cravings, brain fog, helplessness.
I even called a rehab center and AA, but fear of being recognized by an alcoholic and then that getting relayed to my job stopped me. It was an irrational fear that someone would see me at AA or rehab and report it to my boss that seemed real.
I didn't think the cravings would ever stop and the future looked dark.
Today here we are almost new years 2017.
I've been sober for 4 years and 2 months!
All brain fog left me several months after quitting and would return for short periods years after but it's completely gone now.
Mental clarity now is back to when I was a teen and I'm more productive in work and marriage than ever before.
I quit through prayer and Bible verses, I also weened myself off alcohol and stayed disciplined never allowing myself to go over the HARM reduction schedule. This is the hardest part where most fail so I encourage rehab or AA because the weening fail rate, but it did work for me.
As for the cravings, I have none at all. It's like a bad breakup, you might think about the person you broke up with for a long time, but one day you'll forget; one day you'll think "what was her last name anyway?" Time only leaves me with the bad memories of alcohol, not the positive. I've had it offered and had it in front of me while others drank and I have no desire, none.
Also one of the hardest parts about quitting is worry how I'd adjust to life sober, it seemed so boring and that it would never be the same. That was a lie, I've gotten involved in more and new hobbies that are so much more fun than sitting in a bar all night.
I only wrote this post so people like I was back in 2012 can read it and know that it's worth the effort.
Everything can be back to how it was before you ever picked up a drink.
Stay strong, have a plan and stick to it, don't let your cravings or alcohol controlled mind control you and your future.
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