Aother day one
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Aother day one
Where do I start ? 5 days of vodka , last was at 9am this morning .
Called the doctor as I could hardly get out of bed , she gave me a small lot of diazepam .
The metal pain is unbelievable . i can put up with the nausea and shaking and wrenching ,just but I can't think .
The craving for more vodka is terrible , Ive done a clear out and i know there is none in the house . If I had found some I'd have drank it , the mental craving is off the scale . Each hour I am looking for some respite .
Ive been here before and know I will slowly improve . 4 days till Christmas what kind of way is this to behave .
Thanks
Called the doctor as I could hardly get out of bed , she gave me a small lot of diazepam .
The metal pain is unbelievable . i can put up with the nausea and shaking and wrenching ,just but I can't think .
The craving for more vodka is terrible , Ive done a clear out and i know there is none in the house . If I had found some I'd have drank it , the mental craving is off the scale . Each hour I am looking for some respite .
Ive been here before and know I will slowly improve . 4 days till Christmas what kind of way is this to behave .
Thanks
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I am so sorry that you are feeling so badly, Thomas. Oh, that dreaded, horrific feeling we all understand so well.
Do you have a Plan, Thomas? Have you seen Dee's thread on why he is always recommending a Plan? I'll link it for you just in case you haven't seen it.
In the meantime, stay close; promise?
Do you have a Plan, Thomas? Have you seen Dee's thread on why he is always recommending a Plan? I'll link it for you just in case you haven't seen it.
In the meantime, stay close; promise?
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You wrote this in the beginning of the month, regarding your son's attempts to get sober:
Perhaps your recovering AA friends can help you?
Originally Posted by Thomas59 
I went to AA with him a few weeks ago but maybe wasn't the right time . Will try some of my recovering AA friends to see if they can offer support.
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Thomas, I will say a prayer right now that you can hold off on giving in. Think of how great you feel when you abstain from Vodka and try and remember all of the times drinking too much Vodka got you into serious trouble. That helps me stay away when I am mindful of all the problems alcohol has caused me. Hang in there!
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Just think, if you make this your final day one, you will NEVER have to go through this again. You will never have to feel this terrible pain again if you make a plan and stick to it. You can be free from this monster if you take control and do not let it deceive you any longer.
Stay strong. It WILL get better. Congrats on deciding to make a day one. With support you can do it and I know you will not regret the freedom of being sober.
Stay strong. It WILL get better. Congrats on deciding to make a day one. With support you can do it and I know you will not regret the freedom of being sober.
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The way I finally stood up to Vodka and got that crave-binge-despair cycle to end was to drag myself into the rooms and throw myself into AA.
I started binging on the Big Book instead of Booze.
I went to two meetings a day sometimes at first.
I went to the gym daily.
I stopped any and all 'going out' to any sort of function or location that involved alcohol.
I planned my day in the morning to stay busy right up to bedtime.
I got a sponsor immediately and called him daily.
you can do it
I started binging on the Big Book instead of Booze.
I went to two meetings a day sometimes at first.
I went to the gym daily.
I stopped any and all 'going out' to any sort of function or location that involved alcohol.
I planned my day in the morning to stay busy right up to bedtime.
I got a sponsor immediately and called him daily.
you can do it
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Lots of good advice here already Thomas. I would add that cravings are merely thoughts - they can be strong but they only exist inside your mind. And you don't have to act on them if you choose not to. I'd second the recommendation to call some AA friends, they would much rather that you call them than to see you struggle so mightily on your own.
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Thanks for all your comments . Ive been in touch with AA friends . Im going to start meetings again . I might just sit on the couch tonight ,for some reason being in bed alone is scary .
Thanks again you are all wonderful people .
Thanks again you are all wonderful people .
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We're with you, Thomas. We've all been where you are more -- I have, more often and more recently than I'd like to admit.
Hang in there and know you're not alone. You can start over again, stronger, tomorrow.
Hang in there and know you're not alone. You can start over again, stronger, tomorrow.
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