Binge
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Join Date: Oct 2013
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Binge
I made it 2 nights without drinking and last night I binged again. I feel so out of control and scared. I pretty much binge every other night now. The nights I don't is really only because I'm so hungover the thought of a drink repulses me. my world has become so small. I am filled with shame and self loathing. It is a terrible thing to not be able to trust your own self.
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Hi CD
I completely relate. I'm sober almost 4 months and I don't trust myself much either. I have relapsed so many times that I basically consider all my sober periods as long periods of abstinence between my drinking. I know for me it will take years of recovery before I can 'trust' myself. Maybe I never will.
I can however do this today. I used to hate the ODAAT phrase. I'm a goal setter. I'm an achiever. I'll quit forever...I'll be recovered. Yeah, well, not so much. Alcoholism is cunning, baffling and powerful. I had to accept that it won....but one day at a time I can do this. That isn't white knuckling or living in a struggle. That happens when I'm not in acceptance and surrender.
You can do this. ODAAT
I completely relate. I'm sober almost 4 months and I don't trust myself much either. I have relapsed so many times that I basically consider all my sober periods as long periods of abstinence between my drinking. I know for me it will take years of recovery before I can 'trust' myself. Maybe I never will.
I can however do this today. I used to hate the ODAAT phrase. I'm a goal setter. I'm an achiever. I'll quit forever...I'll be recovered. Yeah, well, not so much. Alcoholism is cunning, baffling and powerful. I had to accept that it won....but one day at a time I can do this. That isn't white knuckling or living in a struggle. That happens when I'm not in acceptance and surrender.
You can do this. ODAAT
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Posts: 25,373
Well, let's just get through today.
The week will take care of itself.
What was the reason you told yourself for drinking this last time? Find a different way to deal.
I just kept saying, "I don't drink, no matter what happens."
The week will take care of itself.
What was the reason you told yourself for drinking this last time? Find a different way to deal.
I just kept saying, "I don't drink, no matter what happens."
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Location: Australia
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Welcome back countingdays
I think to have change occur we need to make changes.
Becoming a regular poster here again will help - as will a recovery plan - a plan to stay sober
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
like others have said, concentrate on the day and the week will happen.
D
I think to have change occur we need to make changes.
Becoming a regular poster here again will help - as will a recovery plan - a plan to stay sober
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
like others have said, concentrate on the day and the week will happen.
D
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