CapitalJ

I have been drinking heavily and using a lot ofclass A over the last few days. I stop, go through hell, then jump right back into the gutter. Long story short, I'm so tempted to go to the bar and offset the misery a little bit longer. But I am posting instead and trying to stay put.

I want to fight these damn demons, so far they're winning every round.

Maudcat

Hang in there.

FreeOwl

Good choice.

Keep it clean and sober.

You'll be amazed how great life gets.

Delilah1

Glad you are here and posting. You should join the December class, it helps having people at the same point in recovery.

thomas11

Good for you on posting. It has helped many in the past. post away....don't drink. Tomorrow you will feel so good about your decision.

ohwonder

keep posting! that's a great choice you've made! i'm also here just to post to keep me from going out and buying anything. it's a good place to be.

thomas11

Me too. I'm not concerned about drinking, but I don't really have much going on tonight, so I'm just monitoring the boards. It appears a couple folks have fallen off.

D122y

Hi cap,

What i do is have a series of enjoying things i do through the day and night.

The crave comes, it sucks, then it passes and i feel like a winner.

So in the end, when we don't drink...we feel great.

Give in to the crave, you get drunk...feel buzzed...then feel like a wreck, loser, weak, stinky degenerate etc.

I copy non drinkers. Not AA folks. That is not my thing for now. I used to drink. Now i don't.

I know a dozen folks that don't drink and i copy them.

Things i do are day to day living stuff...cleaning, organizing, tinkering, working out, guitar playing, writing, movies, bingo, golf.
Etc etc.

You get the idea.

Thanks.

melki

Stay put! Post here, watch a movie, get a cup of tea, go to sleep. Anything else, just stay put and start getting rid your body of this poison right now.

CapitalJ

I'm still here. Just wrote a long post but took so long when I pressed sent it logged me out so lost all the content! Anyway thanks to all for your comments it's helping to keep me away from even further debt and misery

Winslow

Good for you CapitalJ,you are using SR the way it's supposed to be used,posting before acting on the urge,fantastic job

Dee74

I'm glad you decided to post instead

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PurpleKnight

Great job on pushing through and posting instead!!

melki

How are you today?

Truthseeker11

I'm on day 9. It gets easier. I read on here a lot and other websites too, I bought myself some easy yet healthy foods and have been holing up in my room this weekend. I'm a bit weepy at times but at this point I really have zero craving for alcohol and I am feeling really well. Take this time to pamper yourself with good food, relaxing things that are good for you, lots of rest, forget the drugs and alcohol, they are no friend of yours and will never bring you anything but harm, and you will get to know who you really are and actually begin to like yourself. It's truly amazing. You can do this. 10 days ago I was drunk all day and today now I don't even want it. Took a bit to get over the hump, hang in there.