lovetolisten

I posted earlier today regarding a black out binge following a period of sobriety.

The withdrawal anxiety and paranoia were so strong, I sought medical help today, which helped.

I retraced my steps to learn that I hit a rock coming into my driveway, which got the oil panel, which caused a leak and the engine won't start. Did I mention this was on a brand new vehicle I purchased 3 weeks ago.? And all this for the chance to go out and have one beer.

I am furious with myself and characterize the whole episode as my rock bottom. I am so so grateful this was as bad as it got. In my condition, I could have easily hurt myself or someone else

Sodifficult

It was a sign. A BIG one.

Midwest1981

I am glad you sought medical help today....it could have been a lot worse! I hope you get to feeling better soon.

neferkamichael

Lovetolisten, burn't up the engine in a old Mercedes I had restored, meant too check the oil in it for a couple of years. Sooner you get sober the more money and heartache you gonna save. Rootin for ya.

january161992

gratitude is a great solvent for

pride
ego
fear
anger
resentment

all my defects of character/ shortcomings


thanks lovetolisten

great story

Anna

I'm glad you're okay and that you're back working on your recovery.

thomas11

I'm hoping you can get right back at it. I would take this last episode as a lesson learned and no need to "test it" again. Glad you are safe.

Dee74

I'm glad you're ok too lovetolisten. Make this your turning point - the only way is forward, right?

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PurpleKnight

You can do this Lovetolisten, draw a line under it and go out and build that happier Sober life!!