jimmyhow

First off I'd like to apologise for ranting last night/this morning. I fell off the wagon spectacularly. I feel awful this morning physically and mentally and am really disappointed with myself. Thanks for the comments and support, I can't reply to everyone individually but it's much appreciated.

I've got a lot going on at the moment and really don't need booze complicating matters even further, Ive got to get this under control, especially with Christmas coming up which is not a good time for me.

totfit

The answer for me was to simply do something else. There are thousands of things I can do that work for me and drinking does not. Exercise, a healthy diet, and positive activities make a big difference.

jimmyhow

I don't know where to start, I just feel like giving up. I'm not happy and don't really know who to turn to.

ScottFromWI

You've already started by coming here. Some other suggestions

1. Go to an AA/Smart/LifeRing or some other kind of recovery meeting
2. Call your doctor and tell them you need help.
3. Call the Samaritans hotline
4. Check into local drug/alcohol rehab options
5. Spend more time here and join the class of November thread
6. Read this thread about what others have done http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html

RedAndy

well the answer definitely isn't drink and drugs mate - lean on us lot on here for starters but you know the only way things are going to get better is by stopping repeating the cycle - those tough times can't be met by getting smashed again to blank things out - you need to work through them no matter how grim it feels - get a plan and stick to it, like said in my previous post get help, don't be afraid of asking for it either - it really does get better mate, honestly it does.

jimmyhow

I know things won't get any easier with booze and whatever else throw in the mix, I keep ignoring my own advice though and doing it anyway...

I NEED to get through Xmas clean and sober or I know things will go downhill fast.

thomas11

Jimmy, you've been around here long enough to know how it will end if you don't make some life changes. I know your heritage makes you want to fight, and I "kind of" get that. But when you get right down to the nitty gritty of the matter, don't you want a better life? Don't you believe you are worth it? You are. Take a stand brother, stay sober.