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Old 11-14-2016, 01:33 AM
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on the verge of losing EVERYTHING including my dog =(

I am so stressed right now... I have no one to turn too... I tried to reach out to my little brother and he pretty much said he doesn't care if I die... I relapsed really hard with my meth addiction and pretty much quit my job, have no money, sold/pawned all my belongings, only have like 5 bucks left on my electric, no food... I am so scared right now....
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Old 11-14-2016, 01:52 AM
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Hi and welcome ryanh1az
You've found a great place for support, encouragement and understanding.

I'm not familiar with AZ but maybe some of our members know where there are food banks and things like that so you and your pooch might be able to get a meal.

Hang in there - this can be your turning point

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Old 11-14-2016, 02:03 AM
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Ryan - fear and anxiety can trigger wanting chemicals. Do not do this. Stay safe. G o anywhere safe- a church, find a meeting- AA or NA. My brother pretty much treats me the same- they are on a different journey. No one will save you if you do not make the effort to stay safe and clean. Remember HALTS- hungry, angry, lonely, tired, sad- they are triggers. Food, fluid and shelter for you are priorities. Worry about your career later. Tomorrow. There is hope. Keep posting- post lots, then post till your fingers are sore. Keep trying. Breathe- pray. Get any help you can- safely. Talk to a priest, a social worker, go to the hospital- they will have networks. Avoid danger places. Prayers with you. You are not alone.
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Old 11-14-2016, 02:25 AM
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Welcome to SR, ryanh1az. I'm sorry that your addiction has brought you so low but there is hope. You can turn your life around. There's bound to be some local resources that help you get back on your feet.
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Old 11-14-2016, 05:06 AM
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If you are posting, you likely have a resource to research a way to find a safe place and shelter if you want to change. There is a lot of room for upward mobility and improvement in your life. This is the bright side. As long as you are breathing and able to cognitively function then there is opportunity to enjoy everything the world has to offer. The only way for a chance to do this it to stop the substance use as a number one, then take one small step at a time in a positive direction. Make a simple daily plan of what you are going to do that day other than use a substance. Research resources for recovery. Sending positive energy your way.
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Old 11-14-2016, 05:35 AM
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Your dog needs you and loves you. And there aren't many good outcomes for dogs that get picked up by Animal Control when their owners get arrested or overdose. You say you relapsed, so you were clean before, so you know how.

Sending you hope.
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Old 11-14-2016, 10:04 AM
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Is there any possibility that you can ask your previous employer for some position, any position at all? If so, do it. Tell them that you realize you made a serious mistake, and that you will take whatever is available.

Obviously, you will have to drop the meth, and be a responsible employee. Just the way it is. Impossible to hold a job down with a meth habit. Do your homework regarding unemployment help, other jobs, etc, while you still have internet access.

If you have other family that can help, besides your little brother, now is the time to reach out to them, but you have to kick the meth, and any other drugs. It will be easier for you to get help or employment if you are clean and sober.
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Old 11-14-2016, 12:35 PM
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Hi ryan, sorry to read about your situation. I hope you can find some local help.

Here are some local rehab contact details from SR if that is any help

Free Drug Rehabilitation Programs Mesa AZ - drug abuse, Mesa AZ Rehabilitation Specialists, Mesa AZ rehabilitation center, Mesa AZ drug addiction, Mesa AZ drug rehab, Mesa AZ drug use
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Old 11-15-2016, 01:51 AM
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Hello Everyone =)

Thank you all for replying. I have been clean for a day now and feel I I am starting to think clearer. I have a friend who offered to pay my rent $700 and she is going to do it tomorrow but I think that is the wrong direction for me to go. There is a Men's Center called EVMC here in Mesa, AZ that will let stay there for 4 months for free while I get myself back on my feet. I think instead I will only ask her for a couple hundred so I have enough money to transition into the facility and have food/transportation money. I found a dog rescue who will take in my dog and I need to call them in the morning. As much as I love him, staying with me in an empty apartment is not the life he deserves. I have always made sure he is feed and and has water but still having him watch me like this is not cool. I worry if his next owner will be good to him and pray will he will be with a loving family. I've had my chihuahua "Chance" for almost 5 years. My goal when I get into the center is to get set up with state insurance and get checked in with a really good outpatient program. I've never gone to CMA meetings but after this last episode I feel it's definitely time. I DO NOT want to relapse or do any drugs again, especially meth. Thank you again for the replies and I will keep you posted on what happens to me..... Ryan
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Sounds like some clear thinking and good decisions Ryan. Keep us updated

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Old 11-15-2016, 03:41 AM
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Good for you...and thank you for taking such good care of your dog. The little dogs get adopted quickly and a good rescue is the best solution by far.

You really seem like a smart, responsible person who has just taken a wrong turn. Now you have a path back and good for you!

I hope you'll let us know how you're doing.

Sending you a hug.
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Old 11-15-2016, 03:58 AM
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Great to read your latest post Ryan. Sounds like you found the help needed to get your life back on track. Please stay close here and share your progress.

Best to you.
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Old 11-15-2016, 05:07 AM
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Glad you are feeling better, Ryan. My husband relapsed on meth about 4 months ago, and did it about 5 times in a 4 month span. I can cope with him being an active alcoholic, but the meth was a totally different story. He became so nasty and paranoid when coming down that I left him, moved into my parents for a day or so, and we were on the brink of divorce. It was really hard on me, and he is now fully aware that meth is a deal breaker for our marriage. I hope you stay away from this nasty drug, and now I finally know why people call it the devil's drug. Please take care of yourself and your drug, as you deserve a far better life than what that drug provides.
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Old 11-17-2016, 12:12 AM
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Good luck, Ryan. It sounds like you have a solid plan. I wish you the best and hope that you will stop by and make SR a part of your recovery. Remember, there is hope!
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Old 11-17-2016, 12:27 AM
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Great choices all around Ryan. Four months will really give you the time you need to get back on your feet. I wish you all of the very the best.
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Old 11-17-2016, 12:30 AM
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I wish you well. You absolutely can do this. Keep coming back here
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