Serenity at last
 

I have 3.5 months sober. I started my journey 2 years ago, looking up AA meetings and sitting in the parking lot. I didn't have a problem like THEM. After many blackouts, went to first meeting one year ago yesterday. I wasn't like THEM. No dwi's, no jail, no job loss......March, went back again....I can do this, but this higher power crap isn't going to fly, I'm strong on my own.....July 29th....as I dug a hidden bottle of vodka out of the garbage pail that was covered with dog poop from the yard, I realized, yeah. I guess I do have a problem. I've opened my heart to my higher power since that moment of degrading desperation. Today, for the first time in 10 years, I've felt serenity. And for THAT, I'm grateful

That's awesome. :)
I turned into one of THEM, and tbh, it's good you came out of it before something terrible happened. I didn't even realize until I sobered up just how much damage I'd done to my life and body. It makes it more difficult to forgive yourself.

Welcome to SR Skuppyspanky :)

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I hope to get there soon myself. 3.5 months, that's over 100 days! Nice!

Welcome to Sober Recovery, Skuppyspanky. We are glad you're here. Congrats!

Hey SkuppySpank-

Congrats on your 3.5 months sober.

Welcome to SR!

Skuppy,

Sounds good. I know the feeling of serenity. For me it is being comfortable while sober, sitting quietly on a Friday night while on a weeks vacation.

In the old days, I would be half way done w bottle of middle shelf vodka.

At 4 months I still had a long road to hoe in my sober journey.

Glad you experienced serenity.

I still get frustrating craves at 18 months sober. Today was frustrating for a few reasons, but I stayed clean.

AA is a great place to stay sober......Just in case.... you start to feel troubled, understand your obsessions etc are a mental thing and might have zero to do w you level of AA effort.

I worry folks feel the brain damage for months and months...years even...and think they are doing something wrong in AA....then they relapse.

Imo....the main thing is stay clean. The next thing is to find things that make us content while being clean.

Thanks.

That's awesome! Stories like this really give me hope!! Way to on 3.5 months :You_Rock_