MICAH87

Hi everyone I am new here. I have been drinking on and off for the past five years to self medicate, I struggle with anxiety and depression. I can be sober for two - three weeks and then will have a huge binge and often do foolish things or become agressive. I have a lovely home and could have a good life if I wanted it, but I keep self destructing, Im sick of the shame, the guilt and embarrassment. Not being able to remember things clearly. I dont want to do it to myself anymore.

Maudcat

Welcome to Sober Recovery, Micah87. In the search for sobriety, this is a good place to begin. It helps to start with a plan. AA? Counseling? What one thing can you do today to remain sober?

doggonecarl

Welcome. Wanting to be sober is the first step.

The second step is figuring out how you are going to support that decision and remain sober through the tough times ahead.

OldTomato

Welcome to SR, you're already heading in the right direction by making this post. Like the others have said, making a sobriety plan is essential.

MICAH87

Thankyou all. I am on a waiting list for counselling. Ive got an appointment with gp tomorrow to get some help maybe medication for anxiety. I need to remember how badly it feels the day after drinking, and how happy and productive I am between binges. I always think I have it under control but I dont.

flguy1

Good luck to you! This place is a great resource. It has really helped me to know that I am not alone in this and neither are you..

For me I try to think about how drinking usually keeps me from the "good" and pulls me towards the "not so good". (Exhaustion, irritability, laziness, financial wastefulness, etc etc)

MICAH87

Thankyou, I know its in me to do this. I will keep reading the forums

CaseyW

Welcome to SR, MICAH87. Recovery is a better way of life.

Hope you'll join us in the Class of November 2016 thread found on this same forum. It's a great way to learn from and help others who are newly sober.

theVman31

Hello and Welcome.
Joining a class like the november class helps...
See you around

shell77

I'm right there with you!!! We can do this!

Emzeh

Welcome and good first step, I am also new and the support is amazing, I always thought my particular relationship with alcohol was somehow unique - it isn't in the slightest and that helps a great deal

MidnightRider

Welcome MICAH87 !

Congrats on taking the first steps towards sobriety.

I am with you... "I'm sick of the shame, the guilt and embarrassment. Not being able to remember things clearly. I dont want to do it to myself anymore."

Let's do this!!

MICAH87

Thanks so much. It can be so isolating feeling like this, feeling shame all the time, feeling like your the only person who isn't 'normal' its great to have support from people who are going through the same things. lets get our lives back on track! :-)

Emzeh

The 'not normal' thing is a massive thing for me and is what causes that horrible black mood shame, because the 'normal' word is what I use to make myself feel worse I think. It's not 'normal' to be able to drink a litre and a half of spirits in a 5 hour sitting, it's not 'normal' to message people and not know what you've said but being too ashamed to read back, it's not 'normal' to take yourself to bed to pass out but leave the fire on, the TV on and candles lit.

'Normal' is still subjective, but the best thing about us is that we have a problem and are trying to fix it. Keep hope :-)

Dee74

Welcome Micah

Read around and post as much as you like - see what other people are doing and what makes sense to you

we also have a class of November support thread here you might like to look at?

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...thread-12.html

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Welcome to the family. I hope our support can help you get sober for good.

Hevyn

Welcome Micah! Of course it's in you to do this - and it really helps to talk things over here. I'm glad you're seeking counseling too. We are with you.

CuppaRosieLee

Hi Micah87, welcome! I'm so glad you've joined us

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum Micah!!