Day 27
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Join Date: Sep 2016
Location: Upstate NY, USA
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Day 27
Day 27 is done. Not a whiff of a craving. After working 4 nights in a row, I basically slept all day. In the past, I would have....drank all night! Instead, my HP was good enough to let me go back to bed, and...SLEEP all night. No guilt, shame or self-loathing, no hangover, no worries about what I did, no bad example for my children, no missing out on being part of the family today, the list goes on..
I have to believe that the cravings are in me, but I just don't feel them because of the work I am doing. The work consists of going on SR, reading, praying, and in general, accepting that I am an alcoholic and cannot drink.
I worry that I am not doing any f2f. I went to about 5 aa meetings, and really did not like them. I think living in a rural area and it being a semi-major deal to get to a meeting is part of it. The first time I got sober, I lived in a major city, and had my choice of meetings 24/7, most within walking distance. Now, at the closer meetings (within 15 miles), I cannot share because there are always people from my job there (either coworkers or patients). The other meetings are about 30 miles away. Obviously, driving 60 miles is not too much if that is what would keep my life together. Maybe I would be motivated to either share in front of these people or go further afield if my present "plan" wasn't working, but, one day at a time, it is. I don't feel like I am just "not drinking" or "white-knuckling". I don't know why I feel motivated to post about this, maybe because I feel good about things, but realize that there is more I could be doing. JUST THINKING OUT LOUD FOLKS! Thanks SR people.
I have to believe that the cravings are in me, but I just don't feel them because of the work I am doing. The work consists of going on SR, reading, praying, and in general, accepting that I am an alcoholic and cannot drink.
I worry that I am not doing any f2f. I went to about 5 aa meetings, and really did not like them. I think living in a rural area and it being a semi-major deal to get to a meeting is part of it. The first time I got sober, I lived in a major city, and had my choice of meetings 24/7, most within walking distance. Now, at the closer meetings (within 15 miles), I cannot share because there are always people from my job there (either coworkers or patients). The other meetings are about 30 miles away. Obviously, driving 60 miles is not too much if that is what would keep my life together. Maybe I would be motivated to either share in front of these people or go further afield if my present "plan" wasn't working, but, one day at a time, it is. I don't feel like I am just "not drinking" or "white-knuckling". I don't know why I feel motivated to post about this, maybe because I feel good about things, but realize that there is more I could be doing. JUST THINKING OUT LOUD FOLKS! Thanks SR people.
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Join Date: Jul 2015
Location: Soberville, USA
Posts: 4,174
Fort,
Just accidentally lost a nice long rambling post i am sure you and all would have loved....I touched a random link while typing on the tablet....probably better....
It basically said...
Stay clean.
Thanks.
Just accidentally lost a nice long rambling post i am sure you and all would have loved....I touched a random link while typing on the tablet....probably better....
It basically said...
Stay clean.
Thanks.
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Join Date: Aug 2015
Location: US
Posts: 5,095
great job on day 27. There are always online AA meetings if driving is out right now. I need the F2F support and fellowship, but I also need the program. I'm not sure how sponsorship works online, if it does, but check it out!
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