Re-Introducing Me
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Join Date: Dec 2011
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Thanks BB, the next newcomers meeting is on Saturday, there are other non newcomer meetings on Monday & Tuesday but didn't know if they were the right ones!!!
The thought of my wife not being in my future absolutely terrifies me, I need to take that step!!
The thought of my wife not being in my future absolutely terrifies me, I need to take that step!!
Hope you manage to lean into the fear and go get some help and support. When you go, I'd recommend buying the little Living Sober book. It's full of wisdom for everyday situations and dealing with life and emotions as they come up.
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Good luck Boblardo and good to see you are serious about getting yourself to a meeting, realisation that change was needed and that it had to come from within was crucial for myself and for every other person on here who is working their recovery. That change is possible for us all but you have to want it more than anything else and do whatever it takes.
Life without it frightened the living daylights out of me too but believe me it can be done and it truly is the best thing we can ever do for ourselves and our families.
So much to see so much to do - alcohol doesn't have to feature and it certainly doesn't make anything better, just a whole lot worse in the long run - it's not that great in all honesty - this side of the fence is miles better.
Make those little bobs proud of you.
Look forward to seeing you around on here - good idea to stick close to this place too on a regular basis for plenty of support - join the monthly class, found this to be a great benefit when I joined the November class last year.
Life without it frightened the living daylights out of me too but believe me it can be done and it truly is the best thing we can ever do for ourselves and our families.
So much to see so much to do - alcohol doesn't have to feature and it certainly doesn't make anything better, just a whole lot worse in the long run - it's not that great in all honesty - this side of the fence is miles better.
Make those little bobs proud of you.
Look forward to seeing you around on here - good idea to stick close to this place too on a regular basis for plenty of support - join the monthly class, found this to be a great benefit when I joined the November class last year.
I had that happen. But, he was there for the same reason I was. It is totally anonymous. It was not awkward at all - in fact it was actually nice to see a familiar face.
I hope you do not stress about doing this. It is a great step in the right direction. It's just an hour of your time to help you overcome a terrible burden.
I hope you do not stress about doing this. It is a great step in the right direction. It's just an hour of your time to help you overcome a terrible burden.
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So I found the courage and went to my first meeting
It was difficult to associate myself with being an alcoholic but it's clear that I am in fact an alcoholic
The biggest thing for me was realising that not all alcoholics wear trousers held up with rope and smell
Thanks for the support so far
It was difficult to associate myself with being an alcoholic but it's clear that I am in fact an alcoholic
The biggest thing for me was realising that not all alcoholics wear trousers held up with rope and smell
Thanks for the support so far
So I found the courage and went to my first meeting
It was difficult to associate myself with being an alcoholic but it's clear that I am in fact an alcoholic
The biggest thing for me was realising that not all alcoholics wear trousers held up with rope and smell
Thanks for the support so far
It was difficult to associate myself with being an alcoholic but it's clear that I am in fact an alcoholic
The biggest thing for me was realising that not all alcoholics wear trousers held up with rope and smell
Thanks for the support so far
Hope you go back soon.
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Sooo, here i am again. I thought I was making good progress but unfortunately for me I had convinced myself that i was able to control my drinking and started again. This saturday I went to a social BBQ at 5pm and what should have been a memorable day turned into a huge bender. I am told I was still opening drinks as we were getting ready to leave at 2am.
I need help to quit drinking, I cannot do it alone.
I need help to quit drinking, I cannot do it alone.
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I have no plan;
There are lots of good things in my life, a loving wife, two great children and a good job.
I keep telling myself I don't need alcohol but ALL my previous attempts have failed. This is probably the 3 or 4th time ive tried stopping and i always end up back here after a huge bender and being filled with resentment, embarrassment and regret.
There are lots of good things in my life, a loving wife, two great children and a good job.
I keep telling myself I don't need alcohol but ALL my previous attempts have failed. This is probably the 3 or 4th time ive tried stopping and i always end up back here after a huge bender and being filled with resentment, embarrassment and regret.
Welcome back, boblardo
I have found that sticking around SR on a regular basis, reading (so much gold to ponder and apply to my life ) and posting support to others is a way to build on my sobriety and to remind myself that ONE drink will undo it all.
The support, wisdom and generosity of SR is like nothing I have seen before and I am grateful to come here everyday.
I hope to see you around
I have found that sticking around SR on a regular basis, reading (so much gold to ponder and apply to my life ) and posting support to others is a way to build on my sobriety and to remind myself that ONE drink will undo it all.
The support, wisdom and generosity of SR is like nothing I have seen before and I am grateful to come here everyday.
I hope to see you around
In reality, your addiction doesn't care one whit about controlled drinking. It just wants to drink. So you didn't so much talk yourself into controlled drinking as you talked yourself out of sobriety.
Make the goal sobriety. Total sobriety. Commit to it fully. And do everything in your power to support that decision.
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Last night I started reading "The Big Book", I am sure you are all familiar. The funny thing is, I just couldn't stop reading. I eventually subsided to sleep after completing Bills Story.
What shocked me was how parts of Bill's Story was like reading my life, it was addictive reading.
My wife still loves me but I see disappointment in her eyes, I have let her down again. Everything that is good in our lives is because of her, everything that is bad is down to me and my drinking. I it owe to her, my kids and myself to be a better husband, father and man. That can only happen if I remain sober.
I have woken up this morning invigorated and determined, I am starting to realise I am powerless to alcohol and abstinence is the only plan for success.
What shocked me was how parts of Bill's Story was like reading my life, it was addictive reading.
My wife still loves me but I see disappointment in her eyes, I have let her down again. Everything that is good in our lives is because of her, everything that is bad is down to me and my drinking. I it owe to her, my kids and myself to be a better husband, father and man. That can only happen if I remain sober.
I have woken up this morning invigorated and determined, I am starting to realise I am powerless to alcohol and abstinence is the only plan for success.
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