really struggling
 

Am really struggling with my self injury
i keep using things that are unclean because i just dont feel am worth anything i dont even dress the wounds and by the time my husband knows am about it as i hide it its infected ...my husband patches me up and give me a telling off for doing i do it with anything i can get my hands on
thankfully am running out of things to use

I changed my name to this as i want to give my life to Jesus and i want to fight my demons and get to a point where i dont want to hurt myself any more
i dont want to drink or take anything am unsure if i should be post this here ..i hope its ok to post this
So right now am opening my heart to Jesus opening my soul too

Am sorry if this sound preachy i dont want to make anyone feel uncomfortable
If i have offended am sorry it is not my intention
:thanks

Of course, you can post here. I'm glad you found us.

Have you tried to find help for your cutting through a therapist or dr? I poisoned myself with alcohol because I felt worthless, so I do understand how you feel. I think if you look around here you will feel welcomed and inspired.

I would take yourself along to your GP, he/she can check for any infections and I would have thought you would stand a got chance of being offered some treatment or therapy (not sure what the correct term would be)

I hope you can find some peace of mind

Thank you for replying
when i have had therapy they give me a distraction list they dont really talk about the self injury when i did have a therapist all she would say that mindfulness plays a big part of that
The main reason i self injure is because i hate myself for things that where not my fault when am very low i forget that the past wasnt my fault
and i self injure because i feel so ashamed about it
I no longer have a therapist as she has give me the tools to help myself but there is so much hatefulness that i have for myself that i dont use the tools
sometimes i need reminding that i have to use to tools and dont get emotionally upset with my self

Learning to let go is perhaps one of the best gifts we can give to ourselves. Letting go of ANYTHING that hinders our health and well being....

It sounds like you need to find a way to let go of your shame. I personally believe the Lord wants us to let go of shame and it is designed that we can give it to God. Give it to God. Your wounds, both inner and outer can be healed. But, you've got to forgive yourself and let go. Let it go...

Holding on to shame for past deeds is like walking around shackled and in prison. Most of us know how that feels.

Tell yourself that you are worthy of holding your head up high and looking others in the eye and there's NOTHING to be ashamed of now.

Hi, I'm ChloeRose. Do not be afraid or ashamed of what you post. Your heart is hurting. When ever I am facing trials and tribulations I pray. Here is a prayer I say daily:


Prayer In Time Of Trouble

Anonymous

Lord, in every need let me come to You with humble trust saying,
"Jesus, help me."
In all my doubts, perplexities, and temptations, "Jesus help me".
In hours of lonliness, weariness, and trials, "Jesus help me."
In the failure of my plans and hopes; in disappointments, troubles and sorrows, "Jesus help me."
When others fail me and Your grace alone can assist me, "Jesus help me."
When I throw myself on Your tender love as a father and savior,
"Jesus help me."
When my heart is cast down by failure at seeing no good come from my efforts, "Jesus, help me."
When I feel impatient and my cross irritates me, "Jesus, help me."
When I am ill and my head and hands cannot work and I am lonely,
"Jesus, help me."
Always, always, in spite of weakness, falls, and shortcomings of every kind,
"Jesus help me and never forsake me." Amen


I will pray for you! <><

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Like you, JesusFreak76, I am sometimes hard on myself.
Not in a physical way, but mentally.

Whether or not you were at fault . . .
Why not pray for forgiveness?
That's what Jesus taught us.

We need to forgive ourselves as well.
We recently had a discussion about this over in the Christians in Recovery part of this website.

Check it out:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rgiveness.html
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If you believe in the cleansing Power of Jesus, remember that His blood can completely wash away and blot out all of the sin you repent for. And, in God's eyes, that sin is simply "NO MORE", gone, forever and He forgives and forgets. All your misdeeds washed away COMPLETELY. Do you believe that? I do, but I sometimes forget that fact.

JF76,

Your tag line indicates that you have not self-harmed since May 10th of this year.
Does that still ring true?

5/10/16
5th of October.
This is not American date format.
This is the UK.

I hope it still rings true.
I pray that it will.

Hey JF76,

I'm sorry to read about your situation, I'm sending you some hugs.

Apologies - misread the date.

I'm sorry you're still struggling Jesus Freak.
I think Anna's right in that maybe you need more professional help right now?

Prayers and best wishes to you for some peace.

D

thank you all for replying :thanks
i see my drs in a few days