What was I thinking?
 

Okay, I wasn't thinking. I made it 18 days sober, had a very stressful situation at work, and went on a four day bender. Back to day one.

So, in adjusting my plan, I need to reach out for help here before before I reach for the bottle. And it's true what I've read from others. Getting drunk didn't make the situation at work magically resolve itself. Now, I get to deal with that and anxiety at the same time. Not my best move, but I do intend to learn from my mistake.

So, I'm back.

glad youre back

Build a solid plan based on acceptance of the facts my friends you don't have to feel like that if you stay sober

You're absolutely correct, Soberwolf. I definitely need to tighten up my plan.

:welcome home x

Something that still after several years sober I do.
Evaluation my sober and staying sober plan.

Stay vigilant.

M-Bob

I definitly needed to get a few more tools in toolbox other than a bottle, because the reality is life, even in Sobriety is going to through a few curve balls, and if we only have bottle in the toolbox, for me there was only going to be one inevitable conclusion.

Tweak your plan, go at things again and crack it this time!! :)

Welcome back :) Looking at your plan is a great idea, as others have said.

Welcome back SoberLife, I hear you, I recently slipped and back and on 18 days again, feeling good and very positive this time. I also believe that my previous slips have thought me never to stop trying but to pick myself up and revise my plan, its a learning curve I believe. I have a very stressful job and used to go on benders and blame my job, my boss, other people, anyone,etc. etc. as an excuse to legitimise my drinking, while knowing deep down in the back of my head it was the demon drink and the AV leading me down the wrong road. Now I have made major revisions to my plans, I have stopped hanging around with my drinking buddies during the week and weekends and spend more time with my kids and don't go to the pub anymore. Actually some of my friends are jealous that I am off the drink as I was normally quite free with giving out loans that most time I didn't get back. That is all stopped as I now realise that my family need more than my drinking x buddies. I also plan my weekends ahead with my kids and I cannot let them down when it comes around, feeling better every day and enjoying life allot better even though I have been clean up to 80 days before I suffered with paws, this time i think I have come to realise that good eating, little exercise and being happy seems to be keeping paws away, also 1 week of the gigs which I am now reaping the benefits off. Best of luck SL and keep us posted on your progress, you can do it and as Purple Knight says tweak your plan,bye for now :)

Im glad you're back and that you've adjusted your plan.

In my experience the reason for my past slips was simple really...I forgot or disregarded the fact i have a drinking problem.

I heard that once at an AA meeting, one guy sharing said the main reason he keeps coming back after so many years is that he's always afraid he will FORGET that he can't drink safely.

That resonated with me. I don't drink anymore because i don't drink safely. I put myself and others in harms way when i do.

I don't want to forget that EVER again.

Just my 2 cents.:grouphug:

It's so easy to slip up. But you're back on board, that's all that matters!

Welcome back SoberLifeForMe :)
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Welcome back SLFM-customize and work your plant. It sounds as though you've learned some things during your bender. Thanks for sharing..it helps us all.

Thank you all for all of the support. The crazy part about this relapse is that I knew full well that the anxiety would come right back, but let my brain convince me that it wouldn't be all that bad. Wrong. I can't describe just how much I despise anxiety. Why would I willfully do this to myself again? I was feeling so good.

There's no logic to addiction, at least in my experience.

I'm glad to see you're back, SoberLife.

Have you checked out the Weekender's Support thread http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ct-2016-a.html

Or the September class?http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-3-a.html

I've only briefly looked into the weekender and monthly class threads. I need to spend more time on them.

I did the same thing in January. It was my New Year's resolution. Lasted 18 days, then had a bad date... felt like a loser and hit the store.

I remember those times.

One drink ends up taking up an entire week.

A 3 - 4 day bender, followed by a 3 - 4 day recovery period.