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Hi. I just signed up and this is my first post. I am 18 days sober and the anxiety is what is the hardest for me. The cravings can be tough too but I am determined not to drink.
I tried mediation this morning and it did help some.
My biggest fear is going public with my alcoholism. I have only been honest with my doctor. I told my husband that I wanted to make healthier choices. He was fine with that but I know that won't last forever.
Everyone we know are drinkers. Some more so than others. My husband drinks on occasion 1-2 per week but he has always liked me to drink and get drunk. I am a very happy drunk and when I am sober I am very task oriented. Not sure how all of this will play out.
I tried mediation this morning and it did help some.
My biggest fear is going public with my alcoholism. I have only been honest with my doctor. I told my husband that I wanted to make healthier choices. He was fine with that but I know that won't last forever.
Everyone we know are drinkers. Some more so than others. My husband drinks on occasion 1-2 per week but he has always liked me to drink and get drunk. I am a very happy drunk and when I am sober I am very task oriented. Not sure how all of this will play out.
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Join Date: May 2012
Location: canada
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welcome, Barbs.
there is no way of knowing exactly how things will play out.
others will make their choices and you will make yours. there's lots of help available for you to make the ones that will serve you best.
congratulations on 18 days...that is a great start!
there is no way of knowing exactly how things will play out.
others will make their choices and you will make yours. there's lots of help available for you to make the ones that will serve you best.
congratulations on 18 days...that is a great start!
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Join Date: Sep 2016
Location: Lakeside, Arizona
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I was scared to "come out" and admit it as well. I'm actually the owner of a bar and I mingle with our regulars all the time. It's a nice place in a smallish community.
admitting alcoholism to the folks you peddle alcohol to could potentially effect my bottom line! I still admit it though, but I have developed a liver problem to to fall back on as an explanation.
Surprisingly most people are quite supportive. It's only my wifes friends that want to keep her at the bar longer that push me to slip.
I'm still waiting to get that extra energy, last time that happened people thought I was on drugs as I'm typically the quiet type. I'm still stuck in apathetic brain fog at day 11.
admitting alcoholism to the folks you peddle alcohol to could potentially effect my bottom line! I still admit it though, but I have developed a liver problem to to fall back on as an explanation.
Surprisingly most people are quite supportive. It's only my wifes friends that want to keep her at the bar longer that push me to slip.
I'm still waiting to get that extra energy, last time that happened people thought I was on drugs as I'm typically the quiet type. I'm still stuck in apathetic brain fog at day 11.
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Join Date: Aug 2007
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Good to meet you, Barbs! The more I talked things over here, the less alone I felt. No one in my life had a problem with alcohol - so I was grateful to find encouragement here. You can do it.
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