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I've struggled with alcohol for the last 13 years. Unfortunately, I am a binger drinker and I black out the majority of the time I drink. It has now come to the point where every time I drink I go straight to my dealers house for cocaine. I had 6 months sober at the beginning of 2015 and have not been able to maintain anything over a month since then.
I'm on the waitlist for a couple different inpatient rehab facilities since I don't have insurance. I am white-knuckling it until then.
No one speaks to me anymore. Not my friends, not my sponsor. I have completely obliterated my support group through the course of my chaos and continued insanity.
I've been attending meetings on another side of town and I stay quiet because I don't have the energy to make friends who will eventually decide that I'm a hopeless case. I have never been to rehab before and I would like to rebuild my life and find out how it feels to not create a pile of wreckage all around me.
My sobriety date is the 18th of this month. Thanks for reading and I will continue to look at threads here.
I'm on the waitlist for a couple different inpatient rehab facilities since I don't have insurance. I am white-knuckling it until then.
No one speaks to me anymore. Not my friends, not my sponsor. I have completely obliterated my support group through the course of my chaos and continued insanity.
I've been attending meetings on another side of town and I stay quiet because I don't have the energy to make friends who will eventually decide that I'm a hopeless case. I have never been to rehab before and I would like to rebuild my life and find out how it feels to not create a pile of wreckage all around me.
My sobriety date is the 18th of this month. Thanks for reading and I will continue to look at threads here.
Welcome.
Your previous struggles to get sober don't have to be your current struggle. You have two days and you can build on that. If you are truly sick of your drinking and drugging you can change. Stick close to SR while you await word on your rehab.
Your previous struggles to get sober don't have to be your current struggle. You have two days and you can build on that. If you are truly sick of your drinking and drugging you can change. Stick close to SR while you await word on your rehab.
now theres been >6K meetings where i didnt throw a chair
some of us are sicker than others
the old timers told me to keep coming back
i did
now im telling you to keep coming back
God bless
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