hwan

Well i guess i gotta cut down on my drinking and stop feeling sorry for myself even though it may be warranted.
trouble is the drinks don't lie

Soberwolf

Drinks don't lie because they can't speak ...alcohol is an ananimate object

Welcome friend

hwan

every thing speaks. a person once told me every plant has a face.

Dee74

Hi and welcome hwan
not sure what you mean?
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hwan

got t boned when i didnt see it coming and it pretty much rocked some foundations. the comment about every plant has a face is that some times things are not what they seem.
drinking has been a cocoon that i spasmodically wrap myself in because i feel i may be living a lie.
looking for reasons why this shouldn't be the case

Lightning Bug

Drinks don't lie. We lie.

Dee74

I think drinking is the lie to be honest.

I spent a good part of my adult life running from feelings I didn't want, or responsibilities that terrified me.

I built a fantasy world where I didn't have to deal with anything unpleasant.

I do understand feeling like a fraud who was certain to be unmasked one day, though...

When I did get sober I found I was more capable than I ever knew. I discovered I wasn't actually a fraud after all and that rather than someone to be despised I was actually an ok guy.

I had to stop drinking and drugging to discover that tho cos all the booze and whatever else was poisoning my mind and my perspective.

It is a leap of faith to stop drinking and hope for the best but there's about 100 thousand people here who'll tell you it works out.

Noone would stay sober if it didn't

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hwan

never have run away from responsibilities in my life.
Just saying that the booze can make sense of it. without saying a prayer for me, can i still be cheeky and humble

Dee74

As long as you keep holding tight to that lie, you're gonna have a hard road to travel, I think.

The only sense in my life started when I put the bottle down.

The rest - all the showboating and grandiose talk, all the jaundiced view of the world - was nonsense.

I hope you'll stick around. There's a lot of help support and wisdom here.

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hwan

now thats more like it

Lightning Bug

I don't say prayers, but I can be matter of fact. You wouldn't be here if you didn't know you have a problem and want to stop. Good step. This is a great resource. But you can't "guess" you have to cut down. You have to put it down. You have to get a plan and then work a plan. We have a thread on plans here - hopefully someone will come by and post the link.

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum Hwan!!