Dont know what happened
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Thank you everyone for all of your words of warmth and support. Just been to a meeting and shared honestly and people were very supportive, the main message being what have you learned from this and what will you do better next time etc... Much thought and introspection, digging deep and doing a lot of praying.
My last day 1 is nearly over, thank you everyone.
Elle❤️
My last day 1 is nearly over, thank you everyone.
Elle❤️
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Elle, I'm sorry for all you've been through - but very glad you're safe. I put myself in so many dangerous situations. I was reckless when I drank towards the end. The only way to be sure nothing awful happened was to stop all together. Insisting I'd just have one drink never worked once.
You're back and you're going to do this. Congrats on your 'almost over' Day One.
You're back and you're going to do this. Congrats on your 'almost over' Day One.
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Hi everyone, happy to say my last day 2 is upon me, oh the joys of waking up clear headed with everything in tact, having slept in my bed and not on the sofa, house locked up, no doors left open, dog safe, not roaming the streets.... Gahhhh so happy to be sober. Please dear god I never want to go back there! Going to a meeting today and then seeing my sponsor afterwards to go back through steps 1,2 and 3. Am going to stay accountable now, no more hiding away pretending all is good. Thank you to everyone here for helping me through this. Love and blessings to you all. Elle❤️
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Relapse is part of recovery. Just get back on the bus and start again. You are not alone. Many people in recovery slip. Having been part of the house-selling proces not so long ago, I can empathize with your panic. Try not to worry. Lower the price. Unless it's on a fault line, the house will sell sooner or later. I'm assuming you have done everything you can to present it as an attractive home. If not, maybe it's time to up the game. Good luck.
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I'm sorry this happened Elle and I'm glad you're back and working your way through this. If you can figure out what happened, you can come up with some changes to support your recovery.
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I know I think it's because it precedes the weekend when I am at my most vulnerable and miss my ex most of all. Doesn't help that he's getting married to the love of his life any day so am in total abandonment.
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Friday is just another day of the week Elle. The same tools you use on Tuesday or Thursday or Monday are the same ones you use today, if you choose to. Key word here is choose. Reading your words it kind of seems like you are already preparing yourself for a worst case scenario ( another slip) at 9: something in the morning. You have the control to change the tape in your mind. You have the power to change the course of the day. Change your thinking, change the outcome. Keep the same thinking, get the same outcome you have had in the past.
You CAN make it through this day and tomorrow and the next. Start to give yourself positive, powerful thinking affirmations. Get up and go and do something positive for yourself, keep yourself busy and occupied with positive things, get out of your head for a while.
If you allow yourself to stay in this negative place, you and I both know what will happen by the days end. Whats your CHOICE for the day going to be?
Be blessed.
You CAN make it through this day and tomorrow and the next. Start to give yourself positive, powerful thinking affirmations. Get up and go and do something positive for yourself, keep yourself busy and occupied with positive things, get out of your head for a while.
If you allow yourself to stay in this negative place, you and I both know what will happen by the days end. Whats your CHOICE for the day going to be?
Be blessed.
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