ElleDee

Home alone today and wanting to drink. The one thing holding me back is my last promise to my husband that I wouldn't. I've been sober this time 35 days. I have plans for things to do but just this urge to blow it all off. Ugh! I know it will pass, I need to do something to get my mind off of it. Honestly, though, if it weren't for fear of further wrecking my relationship with him, I'd be on my way to the store right now.

Thanks for being here for me.

Soberwolf

Drinking will solve nothing accept this is a craving & it will pass play the tape of yourself drinking at the last drink & not the first & try this

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html

aasharon90

Hang on ElleDee and be sure to ask
for suggestions often for guidance
in remaining sober one more day.

I see that you are an artist and enjoy
making stained glass items. I too
love the stained glass and in fact, I
had ordered several pieces recently,
one being an eaten apple lamp and
the other a lovely cross lamp which
arrived yesterday and cant wait to
plug it in.

I know these stained glass gift can
be quite expensive and often wait
for a sale or get something small to
sit on a table as a night light.

The cross is a spiritual symbol to
help me remember how important
my faith is not only in life but in
recovery too, for without help
and guidance from Above along
with my recovery program I
learned yrs ago and continue to
incorporate daily, then surely
Id be still sick and drunk, crazy,
in a hospital or dead.

I hope and pray that you never
give up or give into that strong
craving and addiction that would
keep you from being the best,
healthiest, loving, caring person
you are meant to be.

This is your recovery. Do this
today and everyday forward for
you because you deserve it.

Addiction is an illness and has
taken many many folks away because
they didn't understand how dangerous
it truly is. Allow others to teach you
and carry you in recovery till you
are strong enough to carry on continuing
to help others by sharing you own
ESH of what your life was and is like
before, during and after your addiction.

My recovery from addiction strengthened
me instead of killing me and for that I am
extremely grateful for it.

Recovery equals life.

cwood3

Sobriety allows to excel in the activities and passions we have in life.

ElleDee

Thank you my friends for you kind and encouraging words. I got on the phone and called my daughter. We talked for a long time. It forced me to think about other things. Now I'm in my studio organizing some glass and starting a new project. I know the urges pass, given some time and not giving in. I would like to not have them at all but I hear that's not a reality even long term.

Lightning Bug

Working through it with a project ia great!

PurpleKnight

You can do this ElleDee!! Day 35 is fantastic!! :

Dee74

Glad you got through it ElleDee
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August252015

Good job! Now on to day 36! Plans for tomorrow?

CajunPrincess

Way to go on 35 days! I can't wait to (hopefully) make it to a month.
Also - the glass thing seems incredible. I've always loved stuff like that, just never knew how to go about it.

ElleDee

Tomorrow back to work! Weekend days alone can be difficult. But I made it through today and feel really great about it. You all helped me and for that I am grateful.

Tonymblue

Great job pushing through.