jumped off wagon
 

Hi all,
Well I screwed up and fell off the wagon, I had been sober since 8/20/2016, last night I got really drunk, today I'm going to an AA meeting, and all I can do is promise myself that I will be sober for the next 24 hours, everything else is just junk, but I can gather myself and do 24 hours.
Feeling mad, and upset at myself, I just can't find the words to truly describe what I'm feeling, the sun came up an hour ago, and I'm doing well but just have to be sober for 24 hours.
I just need, no I want 24 hours sober.

Slips can be demoralizing, but get back up, brush yourself off and keep fighting the good fight.

If you want it, it's there to be had. None of the truly good things in life come without a price. Something I found that helps me stay focused. I've always had eccentric hobbies. I was good at most of them, but I never really gave it 100% because I always put drinking first. So now I have decided to take 2 of my hobbies and really focus on them, to take them to the next level (bamboo fly rod making and carving duck decoys).

I just got back from my morning AA meeting. I always feel better afterwards.

You can put it all together. Keep talking to people here, doesn't always have to be about drinking.

Glad you came right back and posted, hope your AA meeting was a good one, and it helps you to get right back on track with your recovery plan.

Falling off is a part of getting on. Don't beat yourself up. We've all been there. Get those 24 hours. Then get back on the wagon. You can do it.

Going to AA is great. Doing AA is better. Getting a sponsor and working the steps. For me I went 6 times a week and did not drink inbetween meetings. I failed more times than I can count but when I did what people with long term sobriety did I never drank again

I think it's important to learn from the situation so you can be more prepared the next time. I'm really glad you are back posting.

AA meeting was what I needed going to get myself going again. One day one meeting at a time.
Thanks all

You're back, doing the next right thing, and willing to be honest, that's everything you need right there.

It's good that you are posting here, Mick, and it's great that you are going to an AA meeting. Remember that you never have to go through this again!

Welcome back Mick

One second at a time if that's what it takes.

One day at a time has been working for me. Sometimes one hour or one minute at a time. Thinking about never drinking again is just too overwhelming and all that really matters is today anyway. I'll worry about tomorrow when tomorrow comes...

Glad you made it back! So many don't...

I'm glad you got in here, shared what happened and got to a meeting. Those are actions that clearly move you in the direction of a better, sober life.

Keep that up; action in honor of sobriety.

Before you know it, your life will improve more than you can imagine.

Welcome back Mick :)

If you can learn from what happened to make you go back to drinking you'll be well placed to make this a permanent change :)

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You sound more determined to stay on track, Mick. Maybe you learned something valuable. Glad you came back & it didn't turn into a long binge. You can do this.

Glad the AA meeting was helpful.

All you need to concentrate on is staying sober today. Yesterday is history, and the future of tomorrow hasn't arrived yet.