Dee74

I'm sorry you drank Hendrix but this doesn't have to be a long drawn out event.

You've shown you can be sober -0 get back that and wok out what you eed to stay sober for good.

You're not a loser - the fact you're here asking for help shows that

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Darwinia

Good luck bru. Perhaps try not drinking for an hour, then another hour etc.

Nalanda

Post is making me realize something....

It's hard to make positive change, when you feel bad about yourself....

When I slip, I feel depressed and it's easy to give in to that downward pull......

..It's only being able to resist that downward pull that one manages to get back up..

Forget feeling bad, let's move forward.

Soberwolf

With you all the way in this together

Meraviglioso

You are not useless and you are not a waste of space. Stop drinking now and do something positive, you will feel a million times better than if you drink. I promise.

Hendrix

Thanks for all your words of support - I probably don't deserve it as this is becoming a regular occurrence.....

Well I did end up going back to the shop for more booze yesterday - the heebee-jeebies got too much so I topped up to keep them at bay and ease the withdrawal but not enough to get smashed. It's nearly lunchtime now and I haven't had a drink since I went to bed last night at around 10.30

Physically I feel better than yesterday - just tired, belly ache, mild chest discomfort, thirsty and so, so fed up and depressed.

I'm going to go out for a walk just now and will check back in with a cold lemonade when I get back.

I'm wondering about trying St John's wort to see if that helps with the low mood that possibly triggered this recent series of relapses.....

Delilah1

Do you have a plan to get through the evening?

Soberwolf

Best to spk to a gp about using st John wort but I do know it's the goto remedy for depression in Scandinavia

Nonsensical

Once upon a time my sobriety was contingent on things like "shop hours". That was when I was a slave.

So glad I am free now. You can be, too.

Best of Luck on Your Journey.

Hendrix

I feel better for having been out in the fresh air - I'm now working out why it all went wrong and how to stop it from happening again. What I don't get is that I know how bad it gets when I drink but I still go back for more - like an abusive relationship. Can't live with it, can't live without it.

Soberwolf

The important thing is you stop drinking knowing why & accepting why you don't drink

I remember being in the cruel cycle your breaking free from now

Again I'm going to say make your check ins more regular like everyday if you fall get back up start improving a plan brother

You can do this

doggonecarl

Untreated alcoholism. There are solutions.

PurpleKnight

It's called addiction!!

For me I needed to take some real steps to break that addiction, a plan, plenty of support, change up my routines and habits to finally push alcohol to the kerb.

You can do this Hendrix!!