Prinnyruler

Sleeping eight hours again.
That's good as I feel I need it.

Really want sugary food though.
Why is that?

Prinnyruler

Well today is day 35.
Wow!
When I look back the last day I drank seems like only a few days ago.

Another eight hours sleep.
Never slept so much for as long as I can remember.

Dee - I've been reading about your planning idea and working on it.

In the meantime I have gained an incentive to keep sober.

I am an avid computer gamer and today I loaded up a game I haven't played since December and found myself in a place I don't remember.
I had played drunk and missed out on a large part of the game.
That's dumb.
So keeping sober means better gaming.

Whatever works right?

Prinnyruler

Just a wee thought about people telling me I am doing well at stopping puts me off.
When people tell me that I won't stick to it, then I strive to prove them wrong

Grymt

Hmm..that's a big power you're ceding to others. (I do it too) Why is that?

Prinnyruler

I dunno. Probably just my personality.
I like/need to be pushed.

Is it the same for you?

Grymt

Yes. Tell me I can't do something I immediately try think of ways to do it. If I'm already doing it I try harder. If someone praises or encourages me I sometimes wonder what I'm doing wrong.

Prinnyruler

Haha I am similar.

For me however, I have probably too much of an ego. So if someone congratulates me, I think "well it was easy anyway, why are you thanking me"
But tell me I cant and its like F you buddy. I will show you.

Good to meet a kindred spirit lol

Grymt

A good thing to be aware of. It touches on one reason to not drink that I often remind myself of. Normal human mental maturation is suspended during drinking and continues when sober. When older like myself after years of drinking I've got to learn a lot of things I should have learnt years ago. It doesn't necessarily become easier to learn them. Probably the only advantage I have over a younger me is a better insight, but a lot less time left to grow.

Mentium

Tell me about it. I'm retirement age myself. When people at meetings advise 'living in the day' I think to myself 'I don't have much choice'! : )

Prinnyruler

Still going.
Finally some days off work. Watching breaking bad.
Enjoying it.

Badly want a beer.
Not having one

Prinnyruler

Being really jerked around at work.
Really ****** off

Gonna have to fight myself not to drink today

Dee74

Drinking's only going to make you mad at yourself tomorrow Prinny.

What about doing something else after work? exercise, hobbies, hoisehold chores?

Anything to switch off for a bit and forget the anger.

D

Prinnyruler

Well still haven't drank.
Im really dehydrated the last few days so it wouldn't be a good idea anyway.

Feeling very low in mood and alcohol does pick that up but only temporarily so sod that.

Prinnyruler

What the hell is the corrolation with sobriety and sleep?
I thought sobriety was meant to bring insomnia not masses of sleep

STDragon

Sleeping was all I could manage the first two months or so. I gave in to it and loved it. When drinking, I never got the sleep I really needed anyway. It's your body healing itself. The energy levels will return.

Prinnyruler

Offered some wine today, it was red wine which is yucky anyway.
I had a twitch for a few seconds but turned it down.
Quite please about that

Dee74

I'm pleased for you too Prinny

D

Prinnyruler

Thanks dude.
I think by now all the alcohol is out of my system.
I dare not drink as hangovers are hell.
When always drinking I never got hangovers but I remember them from my past haha oh boy, screw that

Prinnyruler

Being offered beer tonight
Struggling but refusing

Dee74

You can always hightail it out of there prinny?

D