Routine, addiction, excuses are easier
 

Hello,
I've been on and off here for a few years now. Happily I can say I am past my worst years, going through a horrible break up, job loss, feeling lowest of low possible. A lot has changed and though I know I still have the alcohol battle, at least I can feel inside that a lot of growth and change has occurred within me. I have just moved and things are finally starting to get settled, ehh moving sucks. In the months prior to the move I had this vision of changing my life and my routines. Last night was first night that I am starting to feel better in my new place. I also decided to stay in and take a day one off from booze. I had a good run for 3 weeks in end of March / April but fell again with the moving and final splitting from my last ex who doesn't want the relationship to be over but it is. So now it's time to prove to myself I can do this...but it's hard and I know the early stages are very hard. Breaking the cycle, the routine, the simple excuses, it's so much easier to just stay in the cycle. And sometimes I feel like the easiness of excuse and cycle are just as powerful as the addiction.
So here's to trying to stay strong and confront the cycle, change the cycle, create a new cycle. Here's to a new journey...
Thanks for listening.

Congratulations Copperfield

Glad you are back!

Good to see you.

Plan today. Just today. However small the increments, distractions, chores...you can do it.

hi. if u need someone to chat with you can tweet me- if youre here then we both know you WANT to win so dont lose hope

Easier to stay in than break out.

But once you're out it's easier to stay out of the cycle than it is to stay in it.

Make a plan, work the plan, and buckle up; this is about to get awesome. :)

Fantastic Copperfield, it all starts with a Day 1!! :)

It's good to see you back, Copperfield.

It sure seems that way while you're still drinking, doesn't it? That it's easier just to stay in the cycle? That's the alcoholic talking inside of you, thinking only about how bad you'll feel tomorrow, or for the next few days. It lacks perspective. In a week the physical withdrawal should be (mostly) gone, and in a few months, those few days of withdrawal will seem like a drop in the bucket, compared to the steady improvement in your life, as you continue to explore how to live a rewarding sober life.

Nice to meet you copperfield

Thank You everyone. I almost caved after work but I made it through!

Great job! Keep it up, more of the resisting and you will feel better. Stay in touch

good to see you Copperfield. Are you still doing the band thing?

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Yup, it's my life and my career and my passion and love. So it's the balance battle but keep on trying!
Thanks Dee!

Breaking the cycle takes such strength... congrats!

This, right here, puts you heads and tails above where I was for a LONG time. If you're doing this for yourself, and not something external, you have a much better chance.

Recovery remains an inside job. Keep up the good work.

There are many sober and successful musicians copperfield. Takes a lot of commitment self-discipline and dedication tho.

What are the kinds of thoughts and things that bring you back to drinking?

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Welcome copperfield,

Best of luck with the new life, focus on the good things and move forward, you can do it.

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Drinking can be such a crutch for me if I am not feeling confident or anxious. But I have put myself through some situations with these feelings and have shown myself I can prevail, it's tough but possible. I think for me, if I drink then it keeps extending, from it's ok i had some drinks last night, to the next day, to the next day, to ehhh I'm useless. So giving myself a break right now from the cycle and trying some new things and routines is my focus.

copperfield, nice to have you back! :)