Sweetichicks Accountability Thread
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Originally Posted by sweetichick 
I had been hanging out all day and finally gave in at 6pm.
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you seem to make it to the store for booze,to the doctors for appointments, and out to get food. yet making F2F meetings-cant do it.
what happened with the counseling and rehab things??
what happened with the counseling and rehab things??
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I had been hanging out all day and finally gave in at 6pm.
since you revived your three year old accountability thread a few days ago, did you consider USING it on a daily basis? did you consider posting here about thinking about drinking? you have been given an arsenal tools to defend against the next drink.....but no one came make you use them.
from the AA Big Book:
Once more: The alcoholic at certain times has no effective mental defense against the first drink. Except in a few rare cases, neither he nor any other human being can provide such a defense. His defense must come from a Higher Power.
until we surrender to the notion that we can are defenseless against alcohol and that we NEED help, the disease will win. surrender is an ACTION step, it means going to any lengths to stay sober. seek any and all help. put aside the "i got this" ego and take whatever help is offered. sobriety doesn't just happen. it's hard work. every.single.day.
since you revived your three year old accountability thread a few days ago, did you consider USING it on a daily basis? did you consider posting here about thinking about drinking? you have been given an arsenal tools to defend against the next drink.....but no one came make you use them.
from the AA Big Book:
Once more: The alcoholic at certain times has no effective mental defense against the first drink. Except in a few rare cases, neither he nor any other human being can provide such a defense. His defense must come from a Higher Power.
until we surrender to the notion that we can are defenseless against alcohol and that we NEED help, the disease will win. surrender is an ACTION step, it means going to any lengths to stay sober. seek any and all help. put aside the "i got this" ego and take whatever help is offered. sobriety doesn't just happen. it's hard work. every.single.day.
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Originally Posted by sweetichick
I had been hanging out all day and finally gave in at 6pm.
I don't think I could have been successful in early sobriety without filling my former drinking time with light physical activity, self-care, and I also chose to offer support to others struggling on SR with some of my free time as that service also helped / helps my own recovery. I've seen you post to others some--what about spending a few hours doing that?
I'm not holding myself up as a model at all, but just sharing my experience which seems to be working--there are many things I could have done better, I still have a huge problem with procrastination, and I still would have cravings or depression even with filling up the time, but it is much easier, I feel better about myself, and I'm building a life without drinking as a part of it. That all has to happen bit by bit, and it is work and struggle at times. You just have to accept that part and realize that it will pass.
I think your honesty about not being sure if you want to drink yourself to death is important. If you don't clearly want to stop, and are willing to back up that wish with will and action, it won't happen, and the disease will kill you in the end. I faced that same choice and I know how bleak and scary and alone you feel. You just want the pain to stop, and you think maybe death will do that. And it will, but not without lots of suffering first.
There is another choice, harder in the beginning but infinitely more rewarding in the long term. You know what you need to do, but are you willing to do it, discomfort, boredom and all? That does pass and life gets so much better, but the tough part you do have to walk on your own and honestly.
You are fully capable of full recovery. I believe you have a lot to offer the world, and you have survived and learned so much, as we all do, from living with addiction. It is a strangely-wrapped gift, as Anne has said so many times on this list.
I wouldn't trade the lessons of my addiction at this point, and I am grateful for each day of recovery I enjoy now.
Life can be good--Life is good-right now in this moment.
Wishing you peace and healing--please make it happen.
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I am glad you are still posting here but you need to post before you drink and you also need to use the correct term, you relapsed, you didn't slip up or stuff up or any other term you care to use that minimizes what happened. Each time you relapse it takes you one step closer to death, I know that's harsh but I don't know what else to say to make you value your own life.
Are you actually going to therapy at the rehab center? I've asked about it three times I'd really appreciate an answer.
Are you actually going to therapy at the rehab center? I've asked about it three times I'd really appreciate an answer.
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Originally Posted by sweetichick
This time has to be my last.
I'm having bad liver pains and arent in a good shape physically.
I nearly drank myself to death this time
I have no idea how to stop this insanity; except no alcohol period.
its the only solution except death.
I don't want to be another statistic.
Sweeti. In those three years you have constantly been drinking. Each post mentions you 'slipping'. These aren't slips, as you are doing them every couple of days. You are at this point simply drinking. You're not relapsing. Do you want to be sober more than you want to drink? I ask this to many people on here, but in your case this is most definitely a life or death situation and your answer will result in you living, or jumping into an early grave.
You are killing yourself.
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You said: Drank 2 bottles of wine.Back to day one. Thanks for all the help everyone.
What does this mean? - "Thanks for all the help everyone."
If every member of this forum replied to you, gave you suggestions, shared their experience, had pity on you, or even came, sat, and held your hand, we couldn't do what it takes for you to quit drinking.
When your good times are spent nursing the bottle, you'll know it beyond a shadow of a doubt. It'll kick your butt once and for all and you'll cry out for help and mean it.
What does this mean? - "Thanks for all the help everyone."
If every member of this forum replied to you, gave you suggestions, shared their experience, had pity on you, or even came, sat, and held your hand, we couldn't do what it takes for you to quit drinking.
When your good times are spent nursing the bottle, you'll know it beyond a shadow of a doubt. It'll kick your butt once and for all and you'll cry out for help and mean it.
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I was good with the drinking. I only have to last till 5pm as I need a loan to continue drinking.Much easier than 10 pm.I am planning a special treat on payday for the cost of the loan. This is harder for me than giving up smoking.
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Originally Posted by Dee74
not sure what you mean with the last post sweetichick - can you explain 'good with the drinking' and the 5 pm/10 pm thing?
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Originally Posted by AnvilheadII
I am planning a special treat on payday for the cost of the loan.
a Big Book would be a great investment in your sobriety.....
a Big Book would be a great investment in your sobriety.....
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