Sweetichicks Accountability Thread
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I had a 3 day binge after failing my assessment. I have a week to fix it but have another assessment 2 weeks afterwards. I just get filled with fear and anxiety everytime I look at it. Maybe its part of my bipolar. Maybe I am just not smart enough. Now I have to keep drinking till I see my psychiatrist again as I have no valium and are scared of seizures. The withdrawals were unbelievable today till I took a drink. I feel like such a failure, like I'm just hopeless.
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Plus me and my boyfriend are having problems. He had to drag me into my bed last night after I passed out on the carpet. I'm so embarassed. That has never happened to me before. He says he is not interested in a relationship with a drunk and can't understand what the problem is.
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Hi Sweetchicks,
I am sorry this happened and I do feel for you. I understand you are having a lot of stress which drives you to drinking, but does it really make anything better?
Have a look at this thread again, see how much more positive your posts looked around day 3. Then the assignment came and you relapsed. This is behind you now, please try and stop drinking and get back to Day 1.
You can do this.
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I am sorry this happened and I do feel for you. I understand you are having a lot of stress which drives you to drinking, but does it really make anything better?
Have a look at this thread again, see how much more positive your posts looked around day 3. Then the assignment came and you relapsed. This is behind you now, please try and stop drinking and get back to Day 1.
You can do this.
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I thought you were seeing your shrink yesterday?
I think the idea to drink until you can see the Dr again is a pretty bad idea - a bad idea for your results, a bad idea for your health and a bad idea for your well being.
Can't you call them and stress it's an emergency?
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I think the idea to drink until you can see the Dr again is a pretty bad idea - a bad idea for your results, a bad idea for your health and a bad idea for your well being.
Can't you call them and stress it's an emergency?
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SC, you were doing just fine with the wd/s and got to what day 5 or day 6? i understand the anxiety and lack of sleep are difficult to manage, but they are NOT AN EXCUSE or a green light to drink. now after a 3 day binge of course your body is a mess.
you do not have to drink. you continue to make that choice over any other manner or method of DEALING with your feelings and emotions. and honey, it ain't working. i think you have built your "problem" up in your head so much, you believe you are hopeless, which you are not. you simply MUST refuse to drink, for any reason.
you do not have to drink. you continue to make that choice over any other manner or method of DEALING with your feelings and emotions. and honey, it ain't working. i think you have built your "problem" up in your head so much, you believe you are hopeless, which you are not. you simply MUST refuse to drink, for any reason.
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Originally Posted by sweetichick 
I had a 3 day binge after failing my assessment. I have a week to fix it but have another assessment 2 weeks afterwards. I just get filled with fear and anxiety everytime I look at it. Maybe its part of my bipolar. Maybe I am just not smart enough. Now I have to keep drinking till I see my psychiatrist again as I have no valium and are scared of seizures. The withdrawals were unbelievable today till I took a drink. I feel like such a failure, like I'm just hopeless.
My assessment came back with all the mistakes highlighted so it shouln't take too long to fix up.
no, you dont have to keep drinking until you see your psych nor is it caused by being bi polar- waaaaaaayyyy too many people with bi polar who are sober to use that as an excuse.
youre not a failure and youre not hopeless. you quite smart.all you did,imo, is what alcoholics who havent surrendered do- take the easier softer, that does nothing but make everything worse.
i hope you decide to stop the cycle of insanity before you no longer need an excuse to drink.
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My assignment didn't actually come back with the mistakes highlighted; I got a one page typed letter from the teacher. And I missed my psychiatrist apppointment as I slept thru my alarm. I think you are right that I am blowing this out of proportion. Last night I was awake till 3 am filled with anxiety and terror. Not sure what I was so scared of.
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This is my new accountability thread
Thanks for all the motivation guys. Today is day 2 and I managed to at least wash my hair. I actually slept ok last night. I just hand it all over to my Hp. Plus I cut out sleeping through the day. I still don't know if I will ever make a sound recovery. But I can't just give up. One day at a time. Hope everyone is well and sober.
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Hi Sweeti, glad you are starting an accountability thread again. I too am thinking of doing one myself. Although I just started posting, I've been following your story for a while. I'm glad to finally have courage to post.We can do this! Stronger together!
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Sweeti....so glad you are posting in an accountability thread. I am thinking it will help. I need to start one for my binge eating. I am on Day 2 of eating healthy. Can you get out and walk at all? I try to run and that really helps me. Off for a run this morning and will be praying for you!
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