On The Road

First of all, I experienced mood swings for a few months. Mine were depression, anxiety, ANGER, and elation. Over time they evened out (with help from face to face therapy). So hang in there, and seek professional advice if you feel like you can't handle it yourself.

Second of all, you've identified something really important to keep in mind. We alcoholics drink for ANY reason under the sun: good day or bad day, happy or sad, the sky's blue or grey.... When we eliminate it from our routine, it's so much easier dealing with the challenges life throws at us.

Linz805

It is nice to know that these are normal emotions and just part of the process. And to get thru it I have to go thru them. I actually see two counsellors a week. Not sure if insurance is going to like that but they have different approaches to recovery and I'm liking talking to a therapist twice a week. One of them yesterday said alcohol is like a break up with an abusive boyfriend/girlfriend and that I am going thru a grief period. She suggested writing a letter to alcohol. I'm going to work on that but when I think about what it would be about there will def be anger of the lies it told me!

On The Road

He's something I wrote about back in December 2015 here on SR - maybe it can help you:

"I treated my affair with alcohol like a death. So I experienced all five stages of grief as I went through the process of mourning the loss of my flawed "lover." Yes, I know this sounds dramatic, but it helped me personify my problem in a way where I could do something about it. And I didn't stop with "acceptance." Once I knew alcohol was no longer a part of my life, I asked myself one question: "what are you going to do now?" This helped me understand the importance of forming a "Plan" - my new way of living. Without experiencing all of this, I'm sure I would be back to "bargaining" with myself and trying to drink in moderation."

tomsteve

i has serios anger problems my entire life.
when i got sober i was very miserable for a while, but the the fog wore off and there was the anger.
i was in AA and the 4th step helped me tremendously to find the causes and conditions.
one thing that blew me away was realizing, over all my years, that fear in one form or another was associated with the anger.

least

Early recovery is an emotional rollercoaster. Just hang on and do the next right thing and hopefully it will even out soon.

Linz805

I never thought I was an angry person but I don't even know who I am sober. I've been doing drugs and alcohol since I was fifteen so maybe I am.... There is only one way to find out and that is most definitely staying sober. I am working step one in AA . I met with my temporary sponsor today and I know with time things will be clearer. You guys have helped me see I'm not alone and when your an alcoholic that is golden.