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Old 08-12-2016, 04:40 AM
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Things are not good...

Why do I keep telling myself I can "just drink a bit longer" and then stop...

Nights go by, weeks go by, months go by, I've been buying 6 bottles of wine at a time, drinking 3 beers, then up to 2 bottles in the space of 3-4 hours on my own, in the lounge, kids in bed, husband unhappy in the kitchen, me seeking oblivion and finding it every night.

Wake up feel horrible, hate myself, am so unhappy with everything.
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Old 08-12-2016, 04:50 AM
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I believe you have the power to make the decision to stop Penguin

why not make today Day 1?

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Old 08-12-2016, 04:52 AM
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Originally Posted by penguin23 View Post
Why do I keep telling myself I can "just drink a bit longer" and then stop...

Nights go by, weeks go by, months go by, I've been buying 6 bottles of wine at a time, drinking 3 beers, then up to 2 bottles in the space of 3-4 hours on my own, in the lounge, kids in bed, husband unhappy in the kitchen, me seeking oblivion and finding it every night.

Wake up feel horrible, hate myself, am so unhappy with everything.
I was like that. Exactly. Kids, unhappy husband, kitchen. Self hatred.

I dug myself out through rehab and now I am putting myself back together through strong will, determination and AA.

Is rehab something you could do?
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Old 08-12-2016, 04:53 AM
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Old 08-12-2016, 04:55 AM
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Why do I keep telling myself I can "just drink a bit longer" and then stop...
I did that, too. It's because I was addicted to alcohol.

There's a better way. What are you willing to do to find it? What's your plan?
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Old 08-12-2016, 05:50 AM
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Penguin I drank just one more night every night for years. You have break the cycle.

The good news is that you don't have to wake up up feeling horrible, hating your self and feeling unhappy for the rest of your life.

You absolutely can stop it. You don't have to feel like crap all the time.
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Old 08-12-2016, 06:15 AM
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Hi Penguin,

I was caught in a similar cycle, and finally decided enough. SR has been my biggest support, especially the January class. I have been sober since January 1st of this year, and there are so many be wits to sobriety, one of the greatest is waking up and not being hungover.

You can do this!! What have you tried in the last to stop? What is one thing you can add to your recovery?
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Old 08-12-2016, 06:41 AM
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Old 08-12-2016, 10:20 AM
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Addiction is a real thing, I went round in circles for a long time.

You break the cycle though, get off the addiction merry-go-round once and for all with a plan in place, some regular support and finally drawing a line under alcohol!!

You can do this!!
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Old 08-12-2016, 10:33 AM
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I believe you CAN break the cycle..
Just starts with the first day... That could be Today!

I'm going to tell you this....

When I quit for the first time back in January.

I woke up after drinking the previous night a bottle of Canadian Whiskey (750ml). Wasn't even hung over. But I was scared ... I drank a whole friggin' bottle ! I knew right then and there... I wasn't going to be able to go back to 1-2 glasses of wine with dinner. Or even a couple beers watching a game on TV. It wasn't gonna happen.

So I remember the Friday morning after New years day.......I had a cup of coffee and told my wife "I'm sick and going back to bed". I stayed in bed for 3 straight days. Water, soup, crackers and Netflix. I slept it off ... 3 days later was on my way to sobriety.

Hasn't been perfect.. I've slipped a few times.... But it always starts with DAY ONE.

Please ... Go to bed. Tell the family you need a couple days. If you need help. Call a friend or relative to help with kids. Tell your spouse... Or better yet, check in to a rehab.
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Old 08-12-2016, 10:35 AM
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That's what happens Penguin. I hope you are brave enough to step out of the vicious cycle. We are here for you.
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Old 08-12-2016, 01:07 PM
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I'm not brave enough, this morning I had 1 bottle of red left in the house, I didn't want it as red = headache so I went out and bought 2 X white miniatures...

Now here I am having had 2 beers, the 2 white miniatures and guess what, I'm on the red..l it's so ridiculously predictable, I want someone to take over control and make better decisions for me as I am clearly not capable..

I want help from above, I'm too effing stupid to do this on my own : ((((
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Old 08-12-2016, 01:12 PM
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There's plenty of help and advice here Penguin, but none of us can do it for you, there are ways to get Sober, you need to take a leap of faith and try some of them and trust the wealth of wisdom that says it can be done!!

Put the alcohol down for today, and put a line in the sand right now, no more alcohol and write a new chapter to your life!!
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Old 08-12-2016, 01:19 PM
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Many of us, unfortunately have to be pretty badly mangled/hitting our head hard - before getting the message. Turns out, we could have gotten off the elevator at any floor.

Maybe your starting to understand we all eventually get to the basement floor - dark, wet, lonely........

Get off in the lobby!! Life is a lot better there........
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Old 08-12-2016, 01:25 PM
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you might need to check into rehab, or just make up your mind to quit find a recovery meeting and get busy with recovery
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