lovetolisten

I like the idea of making a plan for total abstinence for a specific period of time, and seeing if you can still with it. I was in denial regarding the need for treatment and the fact that I couldn't set ANY limit (i.e. one week) and stick with it was a huge wake up call. If you say no alcohol for 90 days and are unable to stay within that commitment (or even if you do it and are completely uncomfortable and it is a huge challenge) move on to the next form of help. I commend you for taking it seriously

notdrinking

Tonight it will be 2 weeks since I've had any alcohol, and this time next week it will be *3* weeks without any alcohol. I'm trying to be positive here , but I'm still feeling depressed and overwhelmed by the other things going on in my life. I haven't been to a second AA meeting or to any treatment or support group other than reading and posting here. I didn't go the AA meeting last Thursday because my wife was so sick with a migraine that she was lying on the sofa and couldn't turn her head without getting nauseous. She was close to taking an Imitrex shot but she didn't end up doing that. I wasn't trying to avoid AA; she wanted me to go but I didn't want to leave her with the kids...especially since she is scared of our oldest and has been scared of him since he was 9 - he is 13 now. This issue also makes going to AA meetings (and anywhere else which leaves her home with him, for that matter)...umm...difficult to say the least. For the record, he has never attacked or injured her. It's not a rational fear to me but it is very real to her. Sigh.

I still think about alcohol but I haven't been tempted to act. Like, I'll say to myself "I could really use a beer right now" but I go find something else to do instead of following through on that line of thinking. I do think about how I "sneaked" to obtain alcohol in the past, but I still haven't had to interrupt myself in the process of obtaining alcohol. I just don't choose to start down that path.

I'm going to try 90 days without any alcohol and see how that goes. Actually, I'm revising that last sentence to this: I'm going to go 90 days without alcohol.

I offered to buy a home breathalyzer for my wife so she could ask to test me any time she wanted but she didn't like that idea.

Darwinia

Sounds to me if you need a new wife. Only been drinking for 7 months in your entire life and she kicked you out AFTER you got rid of all the booze. Your wife needs help, not you.

notdrinking

There's probably a lot of truth to your observation.