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Old 07-26-2016, 01:46 PM
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Never stop trying. If you do decide to stop for good, you'll never have to feel this way again.
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Old 07-26-2016, 01:51 PM
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Old 07-26-2016, 05:22 PM
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Welcome back. Lunar. Thanks god posting that verse!
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Old 07-26-2016, 05:27 PM
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This really is difficult to type out, but here goes.

Day one.

Without any sugar coating or excuses, yesterday I starting drinking.

While posting, that is.

I owe all of you an apology for this inexcusable behavior.

Many of you have come such a long way in recovery; you surely

donít need my strange posts, cluttering important topics.

Not fair to you.

I also wish to apologize for sending a few bizarre PMís;

(you know who you are).

This website was created to help all of us. I foolishly abused it.

This hasnít been the first time Iíve posted while using,

but I vow it to be the last.

I needed to be honest. Thanks to those who took the time to read this

Iím tired of trying to fool myself. It seems that I get 30-60-90 days in, feel

fantastic, then fall. Since joining in May 2014, the longest consecutive
stretch I had was 120- something days. I am not going to wallow in guilt and self-pity,
though I feel like a jackass.

I need to change.
I don't know you...but I can certainly identify with the pain of relapse...same here.

I had 8 years sober...been drinking for 2 years.
Right now i have a little over 30 days.
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Old 07-26-2016, 05:39 PM
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Thanks for your honesty - I think it's very admirable. We've all done stupid things drunk, including texting, drunk dialing and all types of other behavior we would rather forget. The most important thing is to think about what triggered you to drink and develop a plan when you confront those feelings or situations again. You've had a lot of sober time stretches. I agree that you're probably well on your way to permanent sobriety. Just keep going with your efforts and look to put more tools in your toolbox!!
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Old 07-26-2016, 06:00 PM
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Put the stick down Lunar!!! You are not the first or last to post mid relapse - I've done it too. Stick to your guns and congrats on day one!!
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Old 07-28-2016, 04:23 AM
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Hi lunar just wishing you the best as you move forward in sobriety
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Old 07-28-2016, 05:03 AM
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Welcome back Lunar!! It took me many attempts at sobriety Before getting it right. I joined in 2012, and will hit the seven month mark on August 1st. Like you, I had stretches of sobriety, followed by a Day One post. Checking in here daily has really helped me. I also was vigilant about planning out the time I would normally spend drinking in the beginning.

I'm glad you are back, you can do this!!!!

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Old 07-28-2016, 05:22 AM
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Hey lunar, I joined back in March 2014 and I'm just now getting past 1 month sober for the second time since then. (The first time was in September 2014)

You don't need to apologize, just keep trying
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Old 07-28-2016, 05:24 AM
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Originally Posted by Mrrryah1 View Post
Put the stick down Lunar!!! You are not the first or last to post mid relapse - I've done it too. Stick to your guns and congrats on day one!!
Good to see you back too mrrryah1!
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Old 07-28-2016, 05:59 AM
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Hello everyone!
Have a great day.
All of you are awesome!
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Old 07-28-2016, 06:28 AM
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Hello everyone!
Have a great day.
All of you are awesome!
You too Lunar. I followed this thread. I've posted drunk too man, we learn, and move on. Just last night I was reflecting on how much my life has changed, but I also reflected on how much my life revolved around my weekend binging and it immediately made me feel uncomfortable.
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Old 07-28-2016, 06:40 AM
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Thanks Thomas.
I've read most of your threads as well.
Unfortunately I merely lurked and jerked.
Trying to get more positively involved now.
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Old 07-28-2016, 07:29 AM
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no need to apologize! we are all the same just different stages.
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Old 07-28-2016, 07:33 AM
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Originally Posted by thomas11 View Post
You too Lunar. I followed this thread. I've posted drunk too man, we learn, and move on. Just last night I was reflecting on how much my life has changed, but I also reflected on how much my life revolved around my weekend binging and it immediately made me feel uncomfortable.
Right on. Greetings from another "weekend warrior." Amazing how much more productive Sunday, Monday, & Tuesday have become once I stopped trying to drown myself in beer on Saturday nights.
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Old 07-28-2016, 03:19 PM
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Have all you 'weekend warrior' guys got a plan for this weekend yet?

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Old 07-29-2016, 05:00 AM
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Hi Dee.
I was never a "weekend warrior".
I was a week-long warrior.
As moronic as it was, I was able
to drink all day, everyday at work, then after work. Weekends were just the same.

My plan is to get through work today and tomorrow (Saturday 1/2 day),
come home, do my laundry, write my bills, take a hot shower and then nap.
I find sleep to be good therapy. I surely get enough physical exercise working 6 days.
Sunday the same. Oh, and I must tend to my 15 or so tarantulas and scorpions,
then maintain the Blatica Dubia colony, which I'm raising as their feeders.

I like that saying, with the moon you have.

I actually wrote a 2 or 3 page mini documentary of my alcoholic life and how this affliction came about. Not sure if I want to post it yet. My grammar isn't the best, it needs some fine-tuning.
Thanks for being here, Dee.
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Old 07-29-2016, 08:27 AM
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Lunar, tend to your babies while you tend to yourself this weekend!

As for the grammar thing....it might be cathartic to tell your story, and perfect grammar isn't required last time I checked!

You're our moon-man around here and we're all rootin' for you!
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