Maybe a turning point for me?
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Maybe a turning point for me?
I've spent all of this year mostly lurking on these forums. I've posted a few times but not for a while as I've been on the merry go round of drink, stop, drink, stop and felt too ashamed to 'show my face' here.
I've recently been drinking increased amounts- I binge every few days and the other night I reached 2 bottles of wine. I've spent the last two days in a pit of self loathing and despair.
And incredibly, as I left work this morning, my first thought was, 'I can drink now that my working week is done'. The craving was intense.
But I've realised something, which I hope may be a turning point for me.
Just because I have a thought about drinking, doesn't mean I have to act on it. I am in control of my actions and choices. I will have thought of drinking. Cravings will arise- these are not signs of failure and therefore a reason to drink, they're simply thoughts.
I don't have to act on them. And this morning, I didn't.
I've recently been drinking increased amounts- I binge every few days and the other night I reached 2 bottles of wine. I've spent the last two days in a pit of self loathing and despair.
And incredibly, as I left work this morning, my first thought was, 'I can drink now that my working week is done'. The craving was intense.
But I've realised something, which I hope may be a turning point for me.
Just because I have a thought about drinking, doesn't mean I have to act on it. I am in control of my actions and choices. I will have thought of drinking. Cravings will arise- these are not signs of failure and therefore a reason to drink, they're simply thoughts.
I don't have to act on them. And this morning, I didn't.
Never Again
Join Date: Jul 2013
Location: Kansas City, MO
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Hi noneever. Glad you showed your face! No shame here. We are all on the same boat. Have been. Are. Will be. And you are so right. We absolutely don't have to act on those cravings. Keep in touch!
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Congratulations on not choosing to drink after work!
I need to put regular effort into my sobriety--I go to AA meetings and read and post here a lot. I hope to hear more from you--it works if you work it!
I need to put regular effort into my sobriety--I go to AA meetings and read and post here a lot. I hope to hear more from you--it works if you work it!
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That's is an awesome turning point, use it as your finish line,too. Experiencing and internalizing that truth is the key to gaining your freedom from the addiction.
Grab hold of that and never let it go, you deserve it.
Congratulations!
Grab hold of that and never let it go, you deserve it.
Congratulations!
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Originally Posted by noneever 
Hi zen. I'm feeling pretty low today- can't stop thinking about all the ****** choices I've made, all the money and time I've wasted, due to alcohol.
But I'm not drinking which is a huge plus.
But I'm not drinking which is a huge plus.
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Originally Posted by noneever
Just because I have a thought about drinking, doesn't mean I have to act on it. I am in control of my actions and choices. I will have thoughts of drinking. Cravings will arise- these are not signs of failure and therefore a reason to drink, they're simply thoughts.
I don't have to act on them.
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