mns1

Thank you Midwest!

Soberpotamus

Got any plans for tonight in mind? It can help to plan some things to do to keep you distracted from urges.

mns1

Tonight I plan to do a lot reading and eating. Unfortunately however we've lost power here and I am sitting here hoping it comes back on soon because it is brutally hot!

mns1

Day 3 again. Have a great day everyone!

MidnightBlue

Hi, Mike. Hope the power is back and your plans will not be disrupted. From my experience I would also say that in early recovery it helps not to beat yourself up when you are not doing something productive so to speak. Body, and especially brain, needs time to rebound back to healthy state which sometimes mean just literally doing nothing. And it's ok.

Posting and reading here was my lifeline, so if nothing else -keep posting.

Best of luck to you.

mns1

Thanks MidnightBlue.

I am home for the day now and feeling some urges to drink. Trying to just let them pass. I am going to workout shortly then eat a big meal. Also playing the tape forward. I have to be up by 3:30 AM tomorrow. And waking up hungover at that hour friggin' sucks.

Soberpotamus

Playing the tape always seems to work. It's a good one.

Great job posting about the urge, Mike.

mns1

Thanks Soberpotamus the prospect of that alarm going on when it's still pitch dark out and my head feels like it has been infected with death itself is very motivating not to drink.

AV is still hounding me a little. Gonna hit the weights now and try to center my mind.

dwtbd

You got this
Put on an extra set, and blame/(thank) the AV , 3:30 comes fast

mns1

Thanks dwtbd.

Just finished my workout (in my non-air-conditioned home gym) and I think I sweat out a gallon of water at least. We're in the middle of a heat wave here.

I feel good but my AV is still trying to seduce me into drinking. Don't know why it's so bad tonight. Going to shower then eat until I feel like I'm gonna burst.

SoberLeigh

Good plan, mns; treat yourself to something sweet. Ice cream and sobriety mix exceptionally well.

Stay close; we are ready to sand up with you against your AV; it won't stand a chance.

mns1

Thanks Soberleigh I might have some ice cream depending on how I feel after eating this huge meal I've just prepared. It's a lot. I'd upload a picture of it but I'm not that tech savvy.

SoberLeigh

Enjoy, Mike!!!!!

Soberwolf

Tell your AV to do one your staying sober with us

WeekendWarrior

The good news is that by the weekend the "physical" part of your cravings should be less intense.

Today is Day 30 for me, the end of my 30 day commitment. Today I am recommitting to another 30 days!

Soberpotamus

How's it going today, Mike?

mns1

Hi guys sorry I drank the past couple nights. Of course I avoided SR out of shame/not wanting to be talked out of drinking.

I feel like this time of year is just one big trigger for me. A lot of the time I drink to relive the feelings of my younger days -- summer nights out with friends drinking and having a grand old time. Now we've all gotten older, have more responsibilities. But part of me just doesn't want to accept that.

This is how the last five summers or so have been for me. I usually rack up some sober time beginning every fall. For some reason, fall triggers something in me that makes it easier for me to not drink. Then summer comes around and I just want to relive those young wild and free feelings of old. But of course I can't actually relive them. I just end up feeling alone, ashamed, and hungover.

I need to conquer this and prove to myself that life still holds many new and exciting experiences for me, even as I (and all of my friends) grow older. And I need to prove that I can experience it without alcohol.

Soberwolf

Nothing changes if nothing changes mike

Dee74

It might be. Life in general was a trigger for me.

That can't be a reason not to fight for your recovery tho.

I agree that you have to accept that a large part of the things you feel you're missing out or dreaming about don't actually exist...

drinks on the patio, with clever conversation and pretty girls, is not the reality.

There's still enough of summer left for you to get a handle on this Mike.

If you haven't got much of a recovery plan actually worked out. I think now's a terrific time to start

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html

You can feel a trigger without having to fire the bullet - y'know?

D

mns1

Thanks Dee. I'm going to work on a plan as soon as I'm done work. I'm on break right now. I feel good about today though. I want to embrace change and let go of the past.