Mike's Accountability Thread
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I am really frustrated with myself right now. I am ashamed to say I caved last night and drank. I let my AV convince me. I should know better.
I don't want to dwell on it though I thought about not even posting on here today because I feel so disappointed with myself but I know that that is not the way to be.
Sundays are one of my toughest days. Why? I have no idea. But I am going to start this week off sober and continue to build sober momentum througout the week and go into next weekend strong.
Just really annoyed with myself this morning I remember telling myself last night, "You could log onto SR but it's late and no one will be on to talk you out of it anyway so go ahead have a drink. You've earned it."
Ridiculous. So mad at myself right now
I don't want to dwell on it though I thought about not even posting on here today because I feel so disappointed with myself but I know that that is not the way to be.
Sundays are one of my toughest days. Why? I have no idea. But I am going to start this week off sober and continue to build sober momentum througout the week and go into next weekend strong.
Just really annoyed with myself this morning I remember telling myself last night, "You could log onto SR but it's late and no one will be on to talk you out of it anyway so go ahead have a drink. You've earned it."
Ridiculous. So mad at myself right now
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Yes I've looked into AVRT in the past. I not considered IOP.
I am going to reread the crash course on AVRT. I feel like part of my problem is I too easily let my addictive convince me to drink while the other part of me is saying not too and doesn't even want to. Like last night when I told myself not to bother logging on here because is was really late and no one would be on anyway. It's ridiculous. I should have just come here no matter what.
So today and tonight no matter what I'm going to be on here.
I am going to reread the crash course on AVRT. I feel like part of my problem is I too easily let my addictive convince me to drink while the other part of me is saying not too and doesn't even want to. Like last night when I told myself not to bother logging on here because is was really late and no one would be on anyway. It's ridiculous. I should have just come here no matter what.
So today and tonight no matter what I'm going to be on here.
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Come here and post anytime. There's always someone here. You can title it something like: 'Help, ready to drink!' And I'm certain someone will reply fairly quickly. It's a global community.
Just don't let the AV get a toehold at this point. Resolve not to let disappointment, frustration, or guilt talk you into more.
Just don't let the AV get a toehold at this point. Resolve not to let disappointment, frustration, or guilt talk you into more.
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Definitely post , someone will be around , even if you have to go looking , say in the chat area or where some other threads are active.
And definitely reread the crash course, and have a look at the threads in Secular Connections forum here on SR , loads of great info in there.
No Matter What is the pass phrase , and No negotiations with the AV , recognize those thoughts , isolate them and dismiss them out of hand. They are only thoughts , no need to act on them.
You can do this, rootin for ya
And definitely reread the crash course, and have a look at the threads in Secular Connections forum here on SR , loads of great info in there.
No Matter What is the pass phrase , and No negotiations with the AV , recognize those thoughts , isolate them and dismiss them out of hand. They are only thoughts , no need to act on them.
You can do this, rootin for ya
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Exactly and I am firmly stating to myself right now: no matter what -- no ifs, ands, buts -- NO MATTER WHAT, I will not listen to that voice. And I will come on here no matter what time of the night it is.
I won't let my AV squeeze out even a whimper.
I won't let my AV squeeze out even a whimper.
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Well It can whimper and It may even howl and wail, but No Matter What trumps all of that.
It will most likely be noisy , especially in the beginning, but the more times you let the whiny little brat throws its pathetic tantrums and don't give in, the less it will return and the less loud the tantrums. Ride'm out, "nothing sucks forever"
It will most likely be noisy , especially in the beginning, but the more times you let the whiny little brat throws its pathetic tantrums and don't give in, the less it will return and the less loud the tantrums. Ride'm out, "nothing sucks forever"
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Originally Posted by mns1 
I am really frustrated with myself right now. I am ashamed to say I caved last night and drank. I let my AV convince me. I should know better.
I don't want to dwell on it though I thought about not even posting on here today because I feel so disappointed with myself but I know that that is not the way to be.
Sundays are one of my toughest days. Why? I have no idea. But I am going to start this week off sober and continue to build sober momentum througout the week and go into next weekend strong.
Just really annoyed with myself this morning I remember telling myself last night, "You could log onto SR but it's late and no one will be on to talk you out of it anyway so go ahead have a drink. You've earned it."
Ridiculous. So mad at myself right now
I don't want to dwell on it though I thought about not even posting on here today because I feel so disappointed with myself but I know that that is not the way to be.
Sundays are one of my toughest days. Why? I have no idea. But I am going to start this week off sober and continue to build sober momentum througout the week and go into next weekend strong.
Just really annoyed with myself this morning I remember telling myself last night, "You could log onto SR but it's late and no one will be on to talk you out of it anyway so go ahead have a drink. You've earned it."
Ridiculous. So mad at myself right now
Here's the good news: You now know what you're up against, and this time you will be more prepared. Take it as a learning experience, it's in the past, move on.
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