Want thoughts from sober people
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Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: Gresham oregon
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Want thoughts from sober people
So I'm sober 5 days I was cleaning the house and I found my husbands stash of dilaudid. I found myself stuck can't think that addict part of me says take it. I did all my chores the house is tip top shape so why do I feel I deserve it. What happens to me if I take it I can't think. I'm opening up to you all cause you have been there.
Hillbilly Girl
Join Date: Dec 2013
Location: In my Garden
Posts: 3,953
Great going on 5 days Invisible Garden! I've come to realize how much I used drinking as a "reward". It was anything but that! I'm finding other ways to reward myself these days, just simple things....a hot lavender bath, buying something nice for myself. Play it forward....your doing great!
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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: UK
Posts: 1,130
Five days is great. It's a challenge at that stage in recovery but it gets easier and it's worth it. Could you start a journal in which you make notes of things that are improving (eg: nice clean home) and things that are still difficult (eg: sense of being denied a reward)?
Do your best
Join Date: Aug 2014
Posts: 67,047
Having a plan will help esp with cravings & urges don't stop trying ok
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,435
Hi IG
I know it's hard... but the only way this cycle will stop is by you making different choices.
If you continue in this cycle you're going to end up in hospital, rehab, or worse.
It's tough to stay away from getting high, but it gets easier the more you make that decision to stay straight.
Can your husband take his meds elsewhere or something ,maybe?
Give being clean a chance.
D
I know it's hard... but the only way this cycle will stop is by you making different choices.
If you continue in this cycle you're going to end up in hospital, rehab, or worse.
It's tough to stay away from getting high, but it gets easier the more you make that decision to stay straight.
Can your husband take his meds elsewhere or something ,maybe?
Give being clean a chance.
D
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: northern michigan. not the U.P.
Posts: 15,281
todays Wednesday. theres a crapton of NA and AA meetings near you every day of the week you can attend, which means theres NA and AA meetings today and tomorrow you can attend to keep you occupied until your dr appt.
ya never know, them meetings just might save ya.
ya never know, them meetings just might save ya.
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: MN
Posts: 8,704
I think what you did was made a slightly uncomfortable situation a truly bad situation. Husbands going to be pissed, you are going to be high, you will have to come down eventually. But right now, all is right with the world. That's what we are addicted to. Ying and yang. Its the balance of the universe.
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Join Date: Aug 2015
Location: Atlanta
Posts: 8,674
^^^ That.
And...please re-read your posts above when you are sober. They scare me a little because they are pretty nonsensical. I bet that is not how you want to be and communicate. It often opens our eyes (even a little) to go back over things we have posted when under the influence.
I hope you will take the right steps into recovery. Whether your husband is a "good" supporter or not. Good luck.
And...please re-read your posts above when you are sober. They scare me a little because they are pretty nonsensical. I bet that is not how you want to be and communicate. It often opens our eyes (even a little) to go back over things we have posted when under the influence.
I hope you will take the right steps into recovery. Whether your husband is a "good" supporter or not. Good luck.
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