Water441

Well my mysterious bruises are gone. Finally.

I'm fighting with my SO because he's treating me like a nun. I did a lot of messed up sex stuff while binge drinking so he gets a green card. A small part of me wonders though... The only truly bad stuff i did was always sex based. My therapist says i have a predilection about feeling wanted.

His disinterest comes because he's out if shape and smokes to the point of extreme lung capacity diminishment.

This sounds selfish but I need a doer as I try to become one again myself.

Serper2014

I'm a little confused about the story.

Maybe I missed one of your previous posts.

entropy1964

Its hard trying to change in a relationship that has a long standing pattern of enabling one another's addictions and bad behaviors. There's a dance that you've been engaging in over and over but in order to change one of you has to get off the dance floor. It would be nice if we could change our partners, but we can't.

Recovery is an inside job. And for me a key aspect of that is I can only control me and my actions/reactions. Beyond that, its outta my control.