sobersolstice

Today is the summer solstice.

I never thought to stop in here on this day the past number of years, but last night should be the last straw. Woke up and barely made it to the bathroom, making a mess. Threw up in the tub at the same time. This is the only reason I'm awake.

I'd grown apathetic to the sauce, and have been drinking every evening.

It's important that I make this choice. It doesn't feel good anymore. It doesn't taste good, and I feel poisoned. The list for reasons I should stop is endless. I've written them down. I can't remember the last 6 months, and don't even understand why the year is half over.

A choice needs to be made. I have to live.

ardy

you can do it kiddo ... get tough get large and stay firm... oh hey...
summer solstice 2016 https://youtu.be/efJHsuT1Z9E

lizzyborden2011

Hello sobersolstice. I am on the same path as you... trying to pull myself together. It's a tough road ahead but I have to start somewhere.
Best of luck to you!

doggonecarl

If the day has meaning for you, do something meaningful today. Quit drinking. And find the help and support you need to carry out that decision.

Good luck.

Soberwolf

Having a plan of things you will do to remain sober will help monumentally x

Anna

Summer Solstice can be a significant day of change for you. Complacency is the enemy so why not keep reading and posting here as you begin your journey into recovery.

Easy2slip

yes!!

You can do this and starts with today!

I hope you can make a plan for today and start your NEW LIFE!

Hawkeye13

Ideal time for major life change--
stop now, stop forever, become your own solstice

You can make that happen . Really.

Ruby2

"It's important that I make this choice. It doesn't feel good anymore. It doesn't taste good, and I feel poisoned"

Thank you for reminding me why I quit. You can too. Find the support. Keep coming back here and reading and posting.

ZenLifter

Solstice, I remember that feeling of total pollution, from the inside out, like my entire body and mind had turned to booze. It's unfortunate that so many of us have to suffer to this extent to finally wise up, but it seems to be true. Maybe this is a turning point for you. And we're here for you. Make the decision to quit. You can do it.

IvanMike

Perhaps this would be a good day to quit (they're all good). I recall keeping my clean date on a few occasions because of what it was.

Dee74

I'm really glad you're back sobersolstice
got any ideas on a plan?

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soberclover

Good to see you! I hope you stay here; SR has been a key support in my recovery -

sobersolstice

11:17pm. Strangely no withdrawals. It may be because I'm so polluted by alcohol that even the thought of a beer makes me nauseous.

I was going through times whereby I'd drink about 9-10 units and not be hungover, followed by days where I would not be able to get out of bed until the afternoon. What a waste. Most of my weekends were like this, and working for myself, I would procrastinate work until I was broke. It's time to make some changes. I'm so much more driven and productive when sober. Looking forward to mountain skies and the beauty of where I live without the extreme limitations of ethanol. Why is this stuff even legal?

The next week will be difficult, but today is day one. I need to think of a plan. My longest period of abstinence was 6 months. I simply dismissed it as poison. I just made spaghetti instead of throwing down a sixer and a bottle of wine. God, help me...