snarky

Happy Wednesday all! Its finally halfway through the week.!

I am having an admittedly HORRIBLE day. I go passed over for a promo that I REALLY wanted and thought I had. So sad, cried in the bathroom at work.

Old me would have grabbed a bottle of wine and hid in my room all night, because drinking will get me that promotion, right?? I did feel myself sliding back into my depression and self hate. I am still there but trying to learn to manage stress without masking it.

Weird, right after, a friend called me and asked me to go out for wine with her, I saw, "no, i don't drink". Hardest 4 words I had to say today.

So, although today was a failure for me, at least I succeeded in saying no.

january161992

i relate to the "sliding back into my depression and self hate" thing


i was taught to listen for the similarities and not the differences


thanks for sharing

Upward2Enlightenment

I wouldn't call it a failure. It didn't go the way you wanted but, the biggest thing is that you didn't drink even when doubly tempted.

malcolmsloan

Sorry about your promotion, Snarky. But, you know what? Your post helped me. I was feeling edgy, trying to get through an evening early in my recovery. I was actually starting to feel some old thinking creep in. "No," I said and I jumped on SR and your post was the first I read. "If this Snarky kid is hanging in there, so can I," I told myself. Now my edgy mood is passing.
Onward!
-Malcolm

snarky

Wow, this made my day and this struggle worthwhile. If I can help one person, it negates the bad things of the day. I really appreciate your kind words. It really help me to see that. have a wonderful night and I'm so glad you're on here too to stay strong!

uncorked

Snarky, good for you! The Universe just gave you a test and you passed with flying colors. Bravo!!

MariahGayle

Your doing great Snarky

shockozulu

I'm so proud of you. Recently I went through a personal issue that would have caused me to drink in the past. Instead I went to a birthday dinner in the town next to mine to have my cake. What a surprise that the sponsor who taught me the steps and traditions AND my former service sponsor were also celebrating their birthdays this last month.

Your post made me realize how far both of us have come. Great job

Delilah1

I wouldn't consider staying sober and dealing with your emotions a failure, I think it is quite a success.

I am sorry about the promotion, I bet something will come along sooner than you think.

Soberwolf

Good job not drinking

Gottalife

I have often missed out on things I wanted, like promotion, or being a hard drinker, and been very dissapointed at the time. However, without exception it seems God had a better plan, and something much better came along. These days I am very grateful I did not get many fo the things I wished for.

kittycat3

Sorry for your disappointment snarky. I've been there, have totally locked myself in room at work to shed a tear or 100.

It's a success that you didn't give into multiple temptations to drink!

snarky

Thank you! It's been a rough day. Hopefully today is better.

Soberwolf

Remember to keep checking in

entropy1964

Snarky is huge that you came here and didn't drink. Life happens and things don't necessarily go my way, but I don't have to drink over them.

Progress!

snarky

Thank you so much. A good cry later aND im.much better that was a rough one. I'm used to drinking alone to Fix stuff

Berrybean

So sorry you were disappointed today.

You know, sometimes I think that when I've been disappointed, what's happened is that I got what I needed rather than what I wanted, or thought I needed.

Quite possibly, at the moment it will do your recovery goid to gave the time and energy to focus on that rather than the distraction of new responsibilities. Further down the line, when things are more settled and you're rocking sobriety you'll be ready to take on new challenges and enjoy them.

Take care. And well done on not using it as an excuse to drink.

hpdw

Well done for not drinking and dealing with the disappointment at work .

360startstoday

That is an amazing victory! Great job learning to deal with things the healthy way. It is so rewarding!

luvmygirls

It probably doesn't help to hear "everything happens for a reason" (UGH) but I was recently passed over for a promotion too. It was very emotional at the time, but several months later, I look at the person who got the job and I'm actually thankful I'm not her. If I got that job, I'm 100% sure I wouldn't be in recovery now...the stress would be overwhelming, and I would use it as a justification to keep drinking.