MIRecovery

On Facebook looking for something else and stumbled across a series of pictures of my daughter that I had never seen before. You would think almost 2 years after her death that it wouldn't feel like your soul has been ripped out of you but unfortunately it does. The pain is just as intense as the day she passed.

But I'm sober, I'm glad I'm sober, and no matter how painful it is to be me I will stay sober

soberaccountant

I am sorry for your loss and heartbreak. I can't imagine it getting any easier to deal with the loss of your own daughter. I've come to realize in my own experience that the ones we love and have lost are still out there for us, looking on at us, believing and rooting for us, loving us no matter what.

I believe in Heaven and life after this earth. I never tell them good bye, just that i'll see them later. Because I know they'll be waiting for me up there when that time comes. She'll be waiting for you too.

God Bless

JK130

I am so sorry. In time, I hope that these new pictures will bring you the comfort of wonderful memories. Take care of yourself.

MIRecovery

I still don't do pictures well. It took a year before I could look at them at all. Now, if I have seen them before, I can look at them but apparently new ones are still to much. Seeing new ones unravels the box I keep the grief in. If it wasn't for the box I couldn't function

least

Sending you hugs.

Gonnachange

As a parent I can't imagine losing a child so no words of wisdom from me, but I want you to know that there is another SR member thinking of you.

entropy1964

I cannot imagine life without my daughter. I'm so sorry for your loss

Pondlady

I really can't imagine what you're going through. I lost my father on Feb. 1st and have been grieving so hard. It's very hard for me to look at pictures and imagine he's not here. I can't imagine, losing a child.

Anna

I think of you often and the loss of your daughter and I am sending you lots of good thoughts to help you get through days like today. You know that your daughter would be very proud of you.

Impossibledays

I'm very sorry. I cannot bear to even imagine that kind of pain.

Ariesagain

I'm so sorry.

Someone on another board described grieving as having a huge hole blasted into your life and the only thing time can do is teach us to walk around it a little better. I still can't look at photos of my lost loves, and they were pets, not children.

Sending you a hug.

suzie89

There really are no words except to say that we hear you and your grief. My daughter was diagnosed with leukemia when she was 8. She was in active treatment for 2.5 years but is now out of treatment (age 13) and considered recovered. It was the hardest thing I've ever experienced and that was with a happy ending. Praying for you.

Rar

I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved daughter. I still feel wrenching pain when I see pictures of my twin who died 8 years ago. I understand how you feel looking at pictures, especially new pictures or pictures you haven't seen before. The other day I came across a high school picture of my twin posted on a Facebook alumni site. It made me very sad, even though that picture is maybe 50 years old. (((HUGS)))

MIRecovery

Broken

Behind my smile is a broken heart
Behind my laugh I'm falling apart
Look closely and you will see
This person i am isn't me

Hevyn

MIRecovery - you've been incredible throughout this ordeal & I admire you so much for not falling back on alcohol for comfort. Of course you were devastated to see the pictures. I don't understand how a person can carry on without times of trial. When we love deeply, it's the price we pay. Sending you love and praying for you to be comforted.

MIRecovery

Thank You all for the kind words. Things must be getting some better i think I made 2 months without a melt down

FLCamper

I will simply repeat what has been said - I can't imagine. I wish I had something helpful to say. Prayers said for you.
I saw the photo you posted a while back. She is beautiful.

snarky

You are so brave and it is such an inspiration to see you work through this so strongly. My prayers are with you.

akire81

I am so sorry for your pain. <3 No one should go through losing a child.

Time2Rise

Losing a child is tough. Have you considered grief counseling? I'm sure your daughter would want you to move past any remaining pain.