101 days and cruising
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101 days and cruising
Yup, 101 days sober.
Been a drunk for many years.
Tried AA several times...often I would pick up booze on the way home.
Hospitalized 3 times.
Thrown in the drunk tank 3 times also just to even it up.
Tried acupuncture. Felt awesome but didn't keep me away from booze for long.
Counseling seemed to keep me on the straight and narrow somewhat for a while although I was escorted out of the building at 9am once by security for showing up for my appointment drunk as a skunk.
Read the big book and other literature I've collected along the way during every attempt at sobriety....except this one.
I would drive around saying the serenity prayer to myself out loud.
After many attempts and slips I just don't want to live like that anymore.
It's been 101 days now...no AA..no counseling...no acupuncture...no doctors......not even any recovery books, including the big book.
I have said the serenity prayer to myself at times though.
It's just a feeling deep in my soul that I do not want to live like that anymore.
It's not the real me to be a slave to alcohol, or anything for that matter. I want to be sober, not a drunk.
I don't need a meeting, or a hospital, or a book to do it.
If anything all of that just seemed to keep me chained to the problem.
I just have to not take that first drop.
I want to be able to post in the 'one year and over' thread, and God willing I'm going to make it.
There's a few people in there I want to say hello to :-)
Yup, 101 days sober.
Been a drunk for many years.
Tried AA several times...often I would pick up booze on the way home.
Hospitalized 3 times.
Thrown in the drunk tank 3 times also just to even it up.
Tried acupuncture. Felt awesome but didn't keep me away from booze for long.
Counseling seemed to keep me on the straight and narrow somewhat for a while although I was escorted out of the building at 9am once by security for showing up for my appointment drunk as a skunk.
Read the big book and other literature I've collected along the way during every attempt at sobriety....except this one.
I would drive around saying the serenity prayer to myself out loud.
After many attempts and slips I just don't want to live like that anymore.
It's been 101 days now...no AA..no counseling...no acupuncture...no doctors......not even any recovery books, including the big book.
I have said the serenity prayer to myself at times though.
It's just a feeling deep in my soul that I do not want to live like that anymore.
It's not the real me to be a slave to alcohol, or anything for that matter. I want to be sober, not a drunk.
I don't need a meeting, or a hospital, or a book to do it.
If anything all of that just seemed to keep me chained to the problem.
I just have to not take that first drop.
I want to be able to post in the 'one year and over' thread, and God willing I'm going to make it.
There's a few people in there I want to say hello to :-)
Yup, 101 days sober.
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awesome...can you tell me what the first 8 weeks were like? I had mild withdrawal...Felt great for a few weeks...then I think PAWS set in. SUPER anxious, feeling like I would lose my mind and not be able to function. Still there. Had my MD start me on Lexapro for anxiety(did not discuss booze), but after 3 weeks leaves me in a haze and still anxious. some insomnia and sexual side effects. I am thinking I will weaken myself off the lexapro before it is too late.
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Originally Posted by scottH 
awesome...can you tell me what the first 8 weeks were like? I had mild withdrawal...Felt great for a few weeks...then I think PAWS set in. SUPER anxious, feeling like I would lose my mind and not be able to function. Still there. Had my MD start me on Lexapro for anxiety(did not discuss booze), but after 3 weeks leaves me in a haze and still anxious. some insomnia and sexual side effects. I am thinking I will weaken myself off the lexapro before it is too late.
How long have you been sober? Is this your first attempt? Why didn't you tell the dr about your drinking? It can take several months, if not longer, for the CNS to normalize after stopping drink. It has been my experience that in most cases it is hard to even diagnose what a person who has recently quit drinking is suffering from without at least 90 days of abstinence under the belt.
PAWS is a set of symptoms that are often different for each person, vary in intensity and duration. PAWS is part of withdrawal and cannot be cured with medication.
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Originally Posted by Frickaflip233
Congrats! It seems the foundation for recovery is, without a doubt, simply not drinking. This concept can get lost for me if I over therapize and complicate the issue.
I'm finding it much more peaceful to simply...just...not ...drink. It sounds simplistic, but rather than hit meetings, counseling, read literature every day.....I'm just carrying on with my life, building up a healthy environment and savoring every waking moment...sober.
Just as I don't want to be a slave to alcohol, I don't want to be a slave to recovery. It's hard to explain, but it's like something finally clicked inside and I now want , as many veterans here say.....to be sober more than I want to drink.
I'm finding that's all there really is to it. Took me a very long time to get to this point though.
Enjoy your day.
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Very excited to read this! Awesome job Hooped😊 I think I've been in the habit of over thinking sobriety in the past,dwelling on drinking,not drinking, best to just NOT drink and not over think I think😊
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I am very much like you with similar experiences except run-ins with the law (only due to sheer luck). 97 days today. You HAVE to want to be SOBER more than you want to drink......period. Until then, folks never will. I get that now and so do you. Nobody has the same "bottom." Scared the hell out of me because I didn't seem to have one....
Originally Posted by Hooped
Yup, 101 days sober.
Been a drunk for many years.
Tried AA several times...often I would pick up booze on the way home.
Hospitalized 3 times.
Thrown in the drunk tank 3 times also just to even it up.
Tried acupuncture. Felt awesome but didn't keep me away from booze for long.
Counseling seemed to keep me on the straight and narrow somewhat for a while although I was escorted out of the building at 9am once by security for showing up for my appointment drunk as a skunk.
Read the big book and other literature I've collected along the way during every attempt at sobriety....except this one.
I would drive around saying the serenity prayer to myself out loud.
After many attempts and slips I just don't want to live like that anymore.
It's been 101 days now...no AA..no counseling...no acupuncture...no doctors......not even any recovery books, including the big book.
I have said the serenity prayer to myself at times though.
It's just a feeling deep in my soul that I do not want to live like that anymore.
It's not the real me to be a slave to alcohol, or anything for that matter. I want to be sober, not a drunk.
I don't need a meeting, or a hospital, or a book to do it.
If anything all of that just seemed to keep me chained to the problem.
I just have to not take that first drop.
I want to be able to post in the 'one year and over' thread, and God willing I'm going to make it.
There's a few people in there I want to say hello to :-)
Yup, 101 days sober.
Been a drunk for many years.
Tried AA several times...often I would pick up booze on the way home.
Hospitalized 3 times.
Thrown in the drunk tank 3 times also just to even it up.
Tried acupuncture. Felt awesome but didn't keep me away from booze for long.
Counseling seemed to keep me on the straight and narrow somewhat for a while although I was escorted out of the building at 9am once by security for showing up for my appointment drunk as a skunk.
Read the big book and other literature I've collected along the way during every attempt at sobriety....except this one.
I would drive around saying the serenity prayer to myself out loud.
After many attempts and slips I just don't want to live like that anymore.
It's been 101 days now...no AA..no counseling...no acupuncture...no doctors......not even any recovery books, including the big book.
I have said the serenity prayer to myself at times though.
It's just a feeling deep in my soul that I do not want to live like that anymore.
It's not the real me to be a slave to alcohol, or anything for that matter. I want to be sober, not a drunk.
I don't need a meeting, or a hospital, or a book to do it.
If anything all of that just seemed to keep me chained to the problem.
I just have to not take that first drop.
I want to be able to post in the 'one year and over' thread, and God willing I'm going to make it.
There's a few people in there I want to say hello to :-)
Yup, 101 days sober.
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congratulations!!! You should be very proud of yourself. I remember my father saying the serenity prayer to help him make changes in his life and it seemed to help and bring about a calm in him. Maybe I will give it a try. Thanks!!!
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