Wooooo! This sobriety thing is really starting to click!
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Wooooo! This sobriety thing is really starting to click!
Closing in on 80 days - and it occurred to me this evening on my commute home from new job that I actually feel *fantastic*. This is the first time I can honestly say that since I quit drinking - what a treat to realize it and let it soak in!
Learning new things at the new job and finding myself deeply interested in the process - my brain feels so much clearer, lighter, better!!!!
Will continue to read daily and post periodically as part of my sobriety plan, as I realize now that working a plan will be mandatory for the rest of my life - but short of not having an addiction issue at all, "working a plan" is a great scenario as opposed to living in active addiction to alcohell for the duration of my stay on this planet.
That's it!
Just wanted to post on my progress, and encourage those of you in the matrix of the daily "should I stop and pick up my alcohol" on the way home every day - oh my God it truly does get better! There is hope!
Learning new things at the new job and finding myself deeply interested in the process - my brain feels so much clearer, lighter, better!!!!
Will continue to read daily and post periodically as part of my sobriety plan, as I realize now that working a plan will be mandatory for the rest of my life - but short of not having an addiction issue at all, "working a plan" is a great scenario as opposed to living in active addiction to alcohell for the duration of my stay on this planet.
That's it!
Just wanted to post on my progress, and encourage those of you in the matrix of the daily "should I stop and pick up my alcohol" on the way home every day - oh my God it truly does get better! There is hope!
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Madgirl that is excellent! So happy to hear that. Thank you for posting this. It's great to have posts like this so we can all appreciate that while keeping sober takes work and commitment, it gets better and better. It is worth the effort!
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Awesome mad girl! I loved reading your post and am so happy that you are really feeling the benefits of sobriety. We are just days apart (my quit date was the 15th of March) so I can relate so much to what you are saying.
I definitely still have some moments where I think about alcohol and some small, very mild cravings- do you? What are the specific actions you take in those moments? For now I am using the playing the tape through, I come on here and read and I think about all the work I invested in getting here (rehab, therapists, etc) and think how I don't want to throw that away.
Keep it up and keep posting!
I definitely still have some moments where I think about alcohol and some small, very mild cravings- do you? What are the specific actions you take in those moments? For now I am using the playing the tape through, I come on here and read and I think about all the work I invested in getting here (rehab, therapists, etc) and think how I don't want to throw that away.
Keep it up and keep posting!
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Regarding cravings - yes sometimes I have them, particularly when my husband is drinking. One evening he left a full glass of an IPA out in the kitchen - he had gone outside to tend to the grill - and I leaned down and took a deep whiff of it. It smelled yeasty and strong.
I just walked away and came to this site, honestly.
I was not a happy drunk, so my memories of being drunk and sick/tired are not pleasent ones. I guess part of my "urge surfing" is recalling my true misery and that sense of powerlessness. I really like this sense of control I feel over my own person - even if I am irritated, or whatever, I can pass through those moments without hysterical or bewildering (alcohol driven) responses.
Does that make sense? Alcohol does not mix well at all with my personality - so I truly like who I am much better without it.
My H is much more reserved in temperment, so when he drinks it is not as dramatic.
I just walked away and came to this site, honestly.
I was not a happy drunk, so my memories of being drunk and sick/tired are not pleasent ones. I guess part of my "urge surfing" is recalling my true misery and that sense of powerlessness. I really like this sense of control I feel over my own person - even if I am irritated, or whatever, I can pass through those moments without hysterical or bewildering (alcohol driven) responses.
Does that make sense? Alcohol does not mix well at all with my personality - so I truly like who I am much better without it.
My H is much more reserved in temperment, so when he drinks it is not as dramatic.
Keep going, it gets better. 
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That's great madgirl. I try to remember that I work plans in all areas of my life really. Structure, maintenance, accountability. Kind of what being a grown up is all about. So its my perspective toward my plan that matters....its not drudgery, its recovery and its a daily deal.'
Glad you're doing so well. Very inspiring.
Glad you're doing so well. Very inspiring.
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Originally Posted by madgirl 
I guess part of my "urge surfing" is recalling my true misery and that sense of powerlessness. I really like this sense of control I feel over my own person
Awesome! Congrats on 80 days.
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