The Beast never dies only sleeps
 

My best friend whom I have know for 40 years died last week. So smart and witty. Extremely generous. An MBA with a great career and home. But he struggled over all that time with addiction. Prescription pills and alcohol.

When we reconnected (since High School) in 2009) he had been sober that time for a half a year. We kept in touch every day for the past 7 years. All that time until last October he was sober. Always in AA and sponsoring.

But the Beast woke up last October.

Found passed out in his car in a parking garage in April. 30 days rehab. Back to AA. Totaled his car one week later. And last week he overdosed in his home. Unresponsive when medics arrived. They couldn't revive him. His son turned 18 just 5 days before that and his HS graduation is this weekend. He couldn't stop.

I love him and will miss him forever. The Beast lays waiting. It did for him but he thought he could contain it. It only died when he died.

Very sorry for your loss, my best wishes to you and your friends's family.

So sorry.. So sad.

Sorry for your loss.

sorry for your loss. it's always scary as to why people go back after so many years of not drinking. that thought really freaks me out.

Ditto

Very sorry, thank you for sharing. When I first joined I posed the question to the forum "does anyone know anyone who actually died from alcohol?" Since then, I've learned the answer unfortunately.

Sorry for your loss....thanks for the sad inspiration.

As we get older......do we lose the desire to fight the av?

Do we sometimes go into a who cares mode?

Do we think...I can't do anything, might as well go down doing something i am still capable of doing....being a drunk...?

Well said D122, that's really the essence of it isn't it?

Omg the way worded that was chilling. I'm so sorry. So sad :(
Hope you'll be okay.

Very sorry for your loss :grouphug:

I am sorry Kiss. Losing a best friend hurts.

:grouphug:

Sorry for your loss.

As one of my friends in recovery says - "The disease has been arrested, but the cage still rattles".

That's one of the reasons I decide to participate in my recovery every day.

I'm sorry for the loss of your friend, you sharing that story may have just helped me stay sober today, Thank you

I'm very sorry for your loss.

I am sorry for the loss of your dear friend. HUGS.

Wow, that's very sad and powerful. Reminded me of the importance of constant vigilance.

Delfin

Sorry, I meant addiction. I see you wrote that he overdosed. Tragic nonetheless.

Constant vigilance yes. Doesn't matter if you have a week, a year, or 10 years, the beast can be woken back up. Sorry for your loss.

I hope he has found peace now.