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bona fido dog-lover
Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
Posts: 99,776
Please don't give in. You know you'd wake up tomorrow feeling guilty and ashamed. Don't give in. Keep adding up those sober days. You know in your heart that moderating is NOT possible. Stay sober, day after day. After a while you won't even want to drink anymore. 
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Join Date: Jul 2010
Posts: 937
When I received some bad news last night, of course the thought of being numb crossed my mind. I really REALLY didn't want to deal with the news.
Instead husband and I went out for a milkshake, and I really thought about all the scenarios in the past when I would automatically default to alcohol. (Beautiful day? Break out the white wine. My dog died? Immediate stop for vodka - need the "big guns". Bad news? Red wine or bourbon. Stressful day at work - open a bottle of wine. Bored? Open a bottle of wine.)
If we keep defaulting every time the thought crosses our mind, we will remain a prisoner for the duration of our lives. Stay strong! The day will remain beautiful while you are sober, and you'll sleep well, and you'll wake up refreshed, clear eyed and ready for another beautiful day in your soul.
Instead husband and I went out for a milkshake, and I really thought about all the scenarios in the past when I would automatically default to alcohol. (Beautiful day? Break out the white wine. My dog died? Immediate stop for vodka - need the "big guns". Bad news? Red wine or bourbon. Stressful day at work - open a bottle of wine. Bored? Open a bottle of wine.)
If we keep defaulting every time the thought crosses our mind, we will remain a prisoner for the duration of our lives. Stay strong! The day will remain beautiful while you are sober, and you'll sleep well, and you'll wake up refreshed, clear eyed and ready for another beautiful day in your soul.
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Join Date: Apr 2006
Location: 45th Parallel, Michigan
Posts: 816
Originally Posted by ICanDoBetter 
annoyed that I cannot simply enjoy a few drinks.
Tomorrow will be better, but only if you don't drink.
Wishing you strength and hope -- Arp
Don't make it get that bad by drinking and tempting fate. Member
Join Date: Oct 2013
Posts: 11,424
Originally Posted by firstymer
You came to SR for a reason. You have a problem with alcohol, just like the rest of us.
The problem hasn't gone away. And I think you know that.
Play the tape forward.
You can do this.
The problem hasn't gone away. And I think you know that.
Play the tape forward.
You can do this.
Your AV is lying, and no, you can't moderate.
None of us can
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Join Date: Feb 2013
Location: W Washington
Posts: 11,589
I cannot simply enjoy a few drinks.
it's just ONE thing.....alcohol. think of all the millions of things you CAN enjoy, simply by being......and think how much of your DAY has spent arguing and debating over one issue. you aren't even drinking and booze is wrecking your day..................
it's just ONE thing.....alcohol. think of all the millions of things you CAN enjoy, simply by being......and think how much of your DAY has spent arguing and debating over one issue. you aren't even drinking and booze is wrecking your day..................
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,432
I actually think it was that bad.
I won't bring up old posts but if you look back I think you'll agree with me.
It's been a monumental struggle and effort for you to get where you are now, and thats been a tremendous achievement.
If you want refreshing nothing beats a little sparkling water - add a little cordial if you need it, or buy a flavoured variety.
The only thing stopping you from being a part of the conversations and the fun is you...and your AV
It's a lying deceitful and downright self destructive voice.
You don't need to listen to anything it has to say, today or ever
D
I won't bring up old posts but if you look back I think you'll agree with me.
It's been a monumental struggle and effort for you to get where you are now, and thats been a tremendous achievement.
If you want refreshing nothing beats a little sparkling water - add a little cordial if you need it, or buy a flavoured variety.
The only thing stopping you from being a part of the conversations and the fun is you...and your AV
It's a lying deceitful and downright self destructive voice.
You don't need to listen to anything it has to say, today or ever
D
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Join Date: Dec 2015
Posts: 197
Originally Posted by ICanDoBetter
Not drinking. Not necessarily happy about it at the moment. But not drinking.
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Join Date: Dec 2015
Posts: 928
Originally Posted by lovetolisten
That's all you have to do. I try to tell myself as I am struggling today too that I can be bitter, angry, sad, annoyed, resentful, regretful, and bored...I am allowing myself to be and feel anything I want... I just can't pick up a drink
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Join Date: Jul 2010
Posts: 937
I get the frustration, the agitation.
I picture addiction as an abusive relationship.
If I think about the damage, sadness and physical pain it's caused me over the years - all the intense highs and lows - and how horrible it feels to be in this abusive relationship, it helps me "fight" because I personally don't want so much of my head space and time left on this earth controlled by it.
Aren't you sick of thinking about it so much? Either longing for it, trying to control consumption once you have a drink, and healing from drinking too much (which always seems to happen)?
I've read here time and time again where regular people who at one point in their lives were completely consumed and controlled by alcohol claim that the day finally came where they didn't feel agitated, frustrated, controlled.
I have faith that this can happen for me too, but I have to keep doing the daily work of not having the first drink. I'm really sick of the subject of alcohol and really look forward to a life free to think about and pursue other things - aren't you?
I picture addiction as an abusive relationship.
If I think about the damage, sadness and physical pain it's caused me over the years - all the intense highs and lows - and how horrible it feels to be in this abusive relationship, it helps me "fight" because I personally don't want so much of my head space and time left on this earth controlled by it.
Aren't you sick of thinking about it so much? Either longing for it, trying to control consumption once you have a drink, and healing from drinking too much (which always seems to happen)?
I've read here time and time again where regular people who at one point in their lives were completely consumed and controlled by alcohol claim that the day finally came where they didn't feel agitated, frustrated, controlled.
I have faith that this can happen for me too, but I have to keep doing the daily work of not having the first drink. I'm really sick of the subject of alcohol and really look forward to a life free to think about and pursue other things - aren't you?
Trudgin
Join Date: Jul 2014
Posts: 6,348
My issue wasn't that I wanted A drink it was I wanted All the drinks. Once I take that first one a lovely Saturday afternoon turns rapidly into a really lousy Monday morning.
I think I'll be content with a full heart that I made a difference today - however small. I lose that opportunity when I drink.
Thinking isn't drinking........keep planting , the fruits of your efforts will bear much good
I think I'll be content with a full heart that I made a difference today - however small. I lose that opportunity when I drink.
Thinking isn't drinking........keep planting , the fruits of your efforts will bear much good
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