FarToGo

So I'm knee deep in my packing, I move out of my ex-partners house next weekend, I have to get a move on. But it feels like I'm treading through thick mud. I'm packing up 10 years of memories and spoiled hopes, I'm either fighting back tears or literally winded by my feelings. It's probably a good thing I'm alone today.
I feel a failure, I feel soooo alone, I feel incredibly sad, unbelievably so. I'm also dead scared of the future.
I had a vivid dream last night we were getting married and he was a reluctant groom trying to convince me it wasn't going to happen. I felt sad in the dream............. what the hell is all this? And it is a kind of hell. Nothing numbing my feelings, though I have thought about it a lot more just lately (just thoughts).
Please send love.
xx

Arpeggioh

Truly sorry for your bad feelings, FarToGo; certainly understandable given your current activity. It might help to know that, by posting today, you're not completely alone; I promise you'll hear from caring folks who wish you the best today, just like I do! Arp

joandmelandhan

I'm sorry about your desperate situation FarToGo. It must seem impossible right now but this may be the start of a new and better chapter in your life. Just get today out of the way and take care of yourself. Post as often as you like there are lovely people here who will look out for you

Rar

I'm so sorry you're sad FarToGo. I would be sad too. However, as Joan said, it could be the start of a new chapter for you. We're here for you. You have us. Sending love.

maimaitreya

It's gonna be tough, but you can do it. One step at a time. Don't think about the future, focus on the tasks you need to do today . Take care of yourself and sobriety. Love from Mai.

strategery

Sending love and positive vibes your way through this tough time.

ChloeRose63

I am feeling your sadness. I have been there many times. I almost lost the relationship I am in now to additction. I know all too well the pain and loneliness that you feel. But, you are not alone ever. You have everything you need inside of you. Remember when it seems like there is no way out...look up!♡Blessings & Strength are being sent to you.

Ariesagain

Sending you a big fierce hug.

twinkleface

I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time. I understand deep sadness. Emotional pain can hurt so intensely. Sending love and hugs your way. You can do this. It seems overwhelming now, but bit by bit, day by day, it will get better. We are here for you.

CaseyW

You are most definitely in my thoughts today. Good on you for getting those thoughts and feelings out there in the open by sharing them here. Hang in there--one day, one minute, one moment at a time, things will start looking up as you embark on this new chapter of your life.

FarToGo

Thank you, thank you, thank you. I knew I could ask on here (again). You're right, one step, one minute at a time ........... back to it, in tears, but that's how it is.
xx

tursiops999

You're in my thoughts, FarToGo. Hard as it is to go through it, it makes sense there would be grief and sadness ... even when a split is the right thing to do, grief is part of it. happiness ahead.

entropy1964

I'm so sorry Far. Breakups are so tough. They really are like a death, in a way. Its good you're crying it out, I think. You're processing the feelings and that's really healthy. Hang in there.

Soberwolf

we'l be with you all the way

soberclover

I'm sorry you are sad (((hugs)))

hpdw

I pray that you might find peace from your sad event .

emme99

You're in my thoughts FarToGo

LadyBlue0527

Sending love and a big virtual hug. As hard as it might be to envision right now there are better days ahead.

Stick close to SR!

FarToGo

Priceless! Thank you, I'm going to need it xx

FarToGo

Thanks so much my friends, as that's what you are being, good friends to me.
Your compassion and support is priceless and really appreciated.
xx